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My attention got caught up by these lyrics by LP...

I don't even know what LP means...

But I'm pretty sure it is not Linkin Park...

Too Much (by: LP)

🎶🎵 I still think about you every day

Maybe two or three times, when I get carried away

I could never push rewind and erase

But at least I know now that it wasn't a phase

You're everything I want

And you have been all along

P.s. And the last line really got me. Awww!

P.p.s. How to write such?!

TRAIN

Now that he's back in the atmosphere

With drops of Jupiter in his hair...

He acts like summer and walks like rain

Reminds me that there's a time to change...

But tell me 

did you sail across the sun

Did you make it to the Milky Way 

to see the lights all faded

And that heaven is overrated?

Tell me

did you fall from a shooting star

One without a permanent scar

And did you miss me while you were 

looking for yourself out there?

Second Grill

Canst thou seeketh something not lost?

Canst thou findeth something not hidden?

… then I’ll get myself lost underneath the deepest abyss,

… I’ll hide myself beneath Thy glorious wings.

That thou mayest not see,

… maybe then, thou wilt seek; thou wilt find me.

Let the music take control and heal my soul...

Risk Not worthy

I am haunted by your lies...

So I drew a line

To protect myself from your crimes

And don't dare me to cross the borderline

Cause I won't do it...

You are a risk Not Worthy to be taken a chance with.

I am so not ready to face my fears...

My heart is racing...

You are my greatest trauma.

My mood swings...

A while ago I was so inspired blogging about shooting stars...

Then now, all of a sudden, I just want to disappear.

...I need my music!

Pangarap

Kung mangangarap ka, mangarap ka ng bagay na hindi mo kontrolado.

Kasi, pag kontrolado mo ang isang pangarap, hindi pangarap iyon...Ambisyon iyon.

Ano pinag ka-iba?

Kung gusto mo maging doktor o abogado, basta mag sumikap ka at mag-aral ng mabuti, makakamit mo iyon... 

Kasi kontrolado mo ang sarili mo na mag-pursige para makamit ito.

Ang tawag diyan ay Ambisyon.

Iba ang pangarap...

Tulad ko, ang pangarap ko ay makakita ng isang bulalakaw o bituing-alpas...

Nananatiling isang pangarap ito sapagkat kahit gabi-gabi ako mag-puyat sa kakatingala sa langit, kung walang babagsak na bulalakaw ay mananatiling isang hiling ito.

Sapagkat hindi ko kontrolado ang pagbagsak ng bulalakaw mula sa langit.

Ngunit pinipili kong mangarap...

Dahil ang katuparan nito ay tunay na kaligayahan.

Falling To Pieces

While my room is such a mess...

I still managed to capture this and made some captions... 🤣

🎤🎵🎶 What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're OK

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'M FALLING TO PIECES... 🤣🤣🤣

Poetry 101

I am drunk with jealousy...

Then you pour me another.

But how can I refuse?

When it is you offering a toast!

I just want to be as clueless as possible...

I don't want to read too much in between the lines...

Because I might find lies in between.

I might believe...

In spite of my unbelief.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger...

And what you don't know won't hurt you.



So I choose to be clueless.

Words Are So Fleeting

When you're working on your song last night and your mind had all the lyrics but you decided to sleep and continue working on it in the morning...
Then morning came and you forgot all the lyrics...
And your mind is empty.
😭

The only thing great in the morning during work days is coffee... And yes, sunrise too.

Could you kiss me and make me your prince?


...this cute little green thing is one of my favorite. He's just so cute.

I call upon the heavens to heal my heart and prepare me for that day to face my fears.

By: Collective Soul

The caption said it all...

There was a time in my life...

When I actually felt this.

Some days my mind is so full of words that they seem to seeped thru so lavishly...

And some days like today...

It is just so empty.

My life is basically a routine of...
Work
Home
Blog

...but with background music.

Looking for inspiration arbitrarily...


Then there were coffee paper cups...

And cigarette butts... But these butts are not mine.
 
I asked myself again...
Why did I sit here?

With people like dragons sipping vape instead of coffee.

For: Lost Magic

Cigarettes and coffee...

They said you can't have both...

I sat down and sipped my coffee like cigarettes never existed.

...because I don't really smoke.
But everyone here does...

So I asked myself why did I sit here?

Brewing at the moment...

"Lost Magic"

This would be my entry for an international song-writing competition due next year.

I'm supposed to get some inspiration from a Fish... 

But when magics get lost...

I came running back to Panda.

This coffee is stronger than me...

And much bitter than my life. 

Heaven Knows (This Angel Has Flown)

When you're bored at work then suddenly this song pops up in your head...

Just because of this hand soap.

🎶🎧 Cause this angel has flown away from me, Leaving me in drunken misery i should

have clipped her wings and made her mine for all eternity

now this angel has flown away from me thought i had the strength to set her free

Did what i did because i love her so, will she ever find her way back home to me... 🎤🎶🎵🎶

If only it is easy to leave the things that seem to weaken us...

I won't be dragging around what's keeping me down.

But still...


In my desperate call...


No one answers.

It is not everyday that a villain becomes iconic.

It is not everyday that a misfit is welcomed.

It is not everyday that a lonely man is understood.

It is not everyday that a Joker is born.

I am not.

I need help.

Not because I am Not that suicidal type means I am ok.

Never judge anyone from their smiles.
You don't know what we're going thru everyday just to wear them.

Crashed and Burned Alone

I wish there's someone who can actually tell me every lyrics of this song and really mean it at the same time...

But everytime I listen to this song...
I am only talking to myself.

I crash and burn alone.

With this song as my background music.

HeALiNg

All this time, I realized that what I really need is healing.

I realized that my wounds hasn't been totally healed.

It's NOT  that I haven't moved on yet...
I'm totally moved on and that is the truth...

But it is like a scar...
There's no more pain...
But in your mind...
There lies the TRAUMA.

It is like I'm not really bitter...
But neither sweet...
Because everything is tasteless.

It is like I'm no longer in pain...
But I'm NOT happy either...
Everything is just empty as my heart.

That is why I need healing.

Not from pain...
Not from wounds...
But from this trauma that's keeping me empty all this time.

And so I pray for healing.
Amen.

HEALING

The Grey Wall Has Fallen

A million times I tried my best to fit inside your heart.

I thought it was my home.

I thought there was a place for me to call my own.

But now it's clear to see that I'm only desperate to become a part...

Of your heart...

Too big...

So many rooms for other people...

But none for me.

And those kind words are just part of the schemes.

I heard it all before...

I'll be too dumb to fall for it.

You're too in love with yourself...

You only love the part when someone is falling for you as well...

But you are too complicated.

I realized, all my efforts has been wasted.

I cannot even bear your face in my memory.

I used  to care...

But now I'm hating you with deepest agony.

Totally unfair...

But I really don't want to see you anytime soon again.

Not So Perfect

One thing more beautiful than perfect is improvement.

Song For A Fish

My daughter asked me to paint a fish.

I didn't know it is such a struggle to make one.

The heck with these fishes! 🤣🤣🤣

But all for the love of Eli... Awww! 🤗🤣

P.s. I said I'll write a song about a fish... 

But I ran out of words to say...

So I painted, instead.

Values

While having my noon coffee at Starbucks, this post on their wall made me realize something...

If someone leaves you...
You are not that valuable to them.

So never ever chase or beg them to come back.
You are not worthy to them.
Live with that.

Atleast save some pride for yourself.
Do your crying in the rain.
No one can tell the difference between tears and raindrops on your face.

And lastly...
You ought to know that someday...
Someone will know your worth.

Disbanded

You're singing with me in my refrain...

But you've got the wrong chorus.

That's when I realize we have the same lyrics...

But we have different songs.

EStranged

This morning, I was listening to some old christmas songs that used to be so heart whelming when I was a kid.
But strange that right now I feel so empty.
Like christmas lose it's magic.
And I know that something is wrong with me.
I just can't figure it out yet.
What and where is the source of this great emptiness unknown.
And my emotional ups and downs is depressing me.
Strange how becoming a stranger made me this way.

M.O.X.

Missing these bandits... 🤣🤣🤣

And those sessions we have every after work.

Drowning Cup of Tea

Be careful what you wish for...

You might just get it.

And it might turn out to be a mistake...

That would become your life sentence.

And no amount of regret can chastise me.

The price that I have to pay everyday is my death penalty.

And in my deep emptiness in the dark,

I would wake up at 2 am and look up to the skies...

Ask the stars why...

But even in my desperate need, 

I still got no answer.

I know I can't just walk away,

And neither can I run.

For the haunting will haunt the haunted.

And forever it will be mine.

If only I could drown myself into madness.

But I don't want to look dumb and weak at the same time.

I tried my best to live by their stigma...

That I am the strong and the fighter...

But I am a lost wounded warrior now.

And I am like this tea bag that I'm drinking right now.

Dipped into hot water, 

Bearing the scourging pain,

They say it is ok...

For it will bring out the best in you.

Maybe it is true.

For the tea bag brought out the scent of Camomile.

But just like it, after the dipping...

What is the use of the bag?

Nothing.

It will go to the trash immediately.

And that is how I feel.

Maybe because I'm thinking too much.

Drowning my emotions into this cup.

One Truth

Here's one truth about You and Me...
I may not mention You in all of my social media posts, but I always mention you in my prayers.
😇😘

Constellation

It is hard to open up your heart,

When all that is left are bruises and scars.

You can wish on all the stars,

So you won't fall apart.

And I'm writting your name on all the constellation,

From big and small dipper to that distant Orion.

Maybe they'll all line up to make a formation,

And fall one by one to my horizon.

P.s. Am starting to brew this new song about the Fish.
This is just the plot...
I guess.

You're My Blood

Say my name

When you're hurting, darling

I'll take the demons away

But you know there will come a day

When I won't be there, but

I know that you'll be okay

'Cause you are my blood

You're my blood

MY BLOOD (by: Westlife)

If

🎧 If I would choose to touch you there

Will you touch me there too?

And if you choose to stay with me

I'll spend my life with you

Without thought, without pride

Leave the things that seem to weaken us

Without fear, leave your lies

Let the magic turn your life around...🎶🎶

IF (By: Bamboo)

Chasing Fish

One of these days I'm gonna write a song about a Fish.

Because I'm running out of words to say about Pandas and Koalas...

And maybe someday I'm gonna catch this Fish...

And eat it till I'm full and die with it's bones by my side.

Like it's the first Fish to walk on this earth...

Or the last Fish to swim underwaters...

Either way, I'm gonna write about a FISH.

Finding inspiration arbitrarily for my new song is like talking to ants and bees and flying little animals... Including fish.

And it's up to you if you think YOU are that Fish I'M TALKING ABOUT.

Stop reading between the lines... 

You might find lies in between.

What Late Evenings Like

If COFFEE is my BESTFRIEND...

Then TEA is my LOVER...

Just add two teaspoons of honey.

Finding Joker

Oh! Since Joker is so in these days...

And it's Thursday...

Let me share a throwback photo.

Back when I played as Harley Quinn.

Three years ago.

How To Love Your Life

This is just one of the reasons why I get up early in the morning...

Nothing beats that feeling when you're alone in the balcony, sipping your hot coffee, thinking of random thoughts... 

While watching the beautiful sunrise.

Imagine doing it everyday.

It's simple yet very inspiring.

P.s. This is an actual view of the sunrise from our balcony.

Dare, Risk, and Promise (A Love Story)

A creative fiction written to become true...

HE dared HER.

SHE took the risk with HIM.

A PROMISE was made.

And so it continues...

Your Space

🎶🎵 I was trying to fit myself into spaces between... 🎶🎶🎵🎧

CALIFORNIA (By: Savage Garden)

Sadder Than Sad = Empty

🎶🎵🎧 I never felt so lonely,

Never felt so out of place... 🎶🎵😣

SANTA MONICA (By: Savage Garden)

FanGirl

Getting addicted with Darren Hayes songs is making me fall in love without anyone to fall with... 🤣🤣🤣

And I'm still up at 2 or 3 am listening to spotify with my playlist filled with him... Hahaha! 

#insatiable

Spin 2

🎶🎵 I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all...🎶🎵

I MISS YOU (By: Darren Hayes)

Spin

🎶🎵 Give me a reason
Why I can't concentrate
The world is turning upside down
Spinning round and round
Now give me a reason
Why I now understand the beauty and simplicity in everything surrounding me...🎶🎶🎵

I MISS YOU (By: Darren Hayes)

Mine 2

An empty heart is heavier than a full heart... But at least for now, I'm filling it with my own self-love.🤗

Mine

An empty heart is heavier than a full heart.

Finding Me

It's kinda fascinating how when we least expect it... We find it.

Like finding myself on my way to work this morning.

🤣😊🤗

Tuesday Morning

🎶🎵 I took your picture while you were sleepin'
And then I paced around the room...🎶🎶

TUESDAY MORNING (by: Michelle Branch)

Orion Rising

Been talking to Orion all night.
Hoping It could convince God.
Maybe Orion could be my shooting star and make my wish come true.
Or maybe Orion could line itself connecting me to you.
Or maybe it could spell your name up in the skies and let it fall one by one.

To Fall is Not To Fail

I wish I could go back to the time when I still do not love you.

That time when my heart did not yet fell for you.

Those times when I could sit beside you and hug you without that awkward feeling.

Cause now I don't know what am I saving...

Myself or our friendship?

But either way... Both sides are falling.

I just hope it's not failing.
And all these time I've been waiting for you to love me too...
Or if you do love me too,
I'm just waiting for you to say it to me...
And so I write this open letter for you.
I don't want you to read it because I'm saving my pride.
But atleast I said mine.

Love, Odessa ❤️

Unblemished

This song has been my all time favorite love song ever since it was released by Darren Hayes.
It speaks about love as an imperfect thing but because of acceptance it became the most beautiful thing on earth.
And so in spite of all the pain, rejections, and hardship love has to go with...
This song always reminds me to believe.
It remained UNBLEMISHED.

So Beautiful (by: Darren Hayes)

The Power of Blind Faith

It is hard to have faith when the only thing you're holding is his word.
But the hardest part of having faith is when there were no words, no promises, no certainty... But just you wanting to believe.

Right now, I just want to be calm.
I want to make peace.
I want to understand you.
That maybe you're also going through some difficult times, and I don't want to be the one to confuse you as well.
Till then I'll wait.
Because I have faith...
In You, God.
Amen.

Strong As Coffee

And you know and you know
''Cause my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow so before
I'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song...

(Strong by: Robbie Williams)

Would You Run To Me?

You can run and be free, if that's what you need
But if you turn back around, would you run to me and
Say you want me, say you want me...
(Augustana)

Rest Stop

She said, while you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you're dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn't care
So I thought, hell if it's over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose my nerve
Are you listening, can you hear me
Have you forgotten.
(Rest Stop by: Matchbox Twenty)

Break in Silence

Here's what I thought...
It's ok to be broken when everything around you is shattered.
But if you want to breakdown...
JUST BREAK IN SILENCE.
YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IS WATCHING AND MIGHT WANT TO CELEBRATE YOUR DOWNFALL.

Branching Out What I Feel

🎵🎶🎵🎵 I missed my chance
And chances are it won't be coming back to me
Why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving in but I should've known better
'cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you...
So desperately... 🎶🎶🎶
(Desperately by: Michelle Branch)

Sing for me Dan Layus

Half of what I say is meaningless, but I post it just to reach you...
If only blogs could reach heavens, then you will know Lord how desperate I am calling... But your pinky finger won't seem to move even just a little.

I swear I believed your word.
But when all magic is lost...
The worst part is a miracle believed but not performed.
A prophecy foretold but did not happen.
A promise broken...
And again for nth time, the worst part of it all is that...
It is You... GOD! WHO MADE ME BELIEVE ALL THESE.

And with this kind of desperation, not even the voice of Dan layus can make me feel better.

And blind faith is the only thing I have...

Still believing like the line from my all time favorite song - "I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it..."

Decisions

I swear I saw sunset in your eyes
Then for a moment it's already sunrise.
I realize that all of my best decisions in life
Are the ones I decided with you.

I saw the red flags but I ignored it anyway.
The walls are high but I was hoping you'll break them all away
Cause you got your ax and you said so
So now I'm just waiting for these walls to fall down one day.

Just like your heart falling each and everyday
I will catch it over and over the same way
Know that I will not let it slip my hand
I will not let it touch the ground again.

Pride

Maybe you can let down your pride
While you convince me
While you provoke me
To let down my guard.

Cause I know I would
Let myself fall into your arms
Been caught up all this time with your charms
You ought to know I could.

Everyday I feel fate is rushing uncontrolled
Taking my hand next to yours
And I can't help but fall more and more
I belong in your arms I know.

Prism

I maybe transparent but I have an artificial light that creates a prism.
And everything I write might be lies but they are the truth at the same time.

For I wasn't born and raised to be the victim...
Of your sweet lines
Of your magical crimes
Of your cute little schemes

So I found myself building up a wall
Of bricks and cement
Against my own sentiments
But you got your ax tearing it all.

Kaleidoscope World

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
(Kaleidoscope World)

Portrait of an Apology

Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
It looks like my heart
Or what still remains
Convinced of the weight
Your interpretations
Are not what I see
I wish they could be
But I remember it much redder...
(Jars of Clay)

Nourishing

We love weekends...
Not just for the art's sake,
But for the moments together.
For every stroke of our brush is a memory we create...
Nourishing her childhood and so is my soul.
For her happiness is twice as mine.

Over There But Never Here

Dear God...
No offense, but...
Oftentimes I wanna punch this line on your face...
For you to know how alone I am for almost all the time.
PEACE ✌️
"You were there when I needed you
You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open
YOU WERE NEVER HERE."

Refuge

This band is redeeming me for ages now...
When salvation is nowhere to be found, it has been my refuge.

Saving Me

Music has become my redeemer, my refuge, my bestfriend...

Once and again and always saving my mortal soul. 🎧

The One

I don't need red flags or warning signs.
I'm not dumb not to see it all clear...
That you can't see my worth...
Simply because I'm not the ONE.

Good Enough

Even if you're good enough, if you're not the ONE... You will struggle to be chosen.

Blur : CAPTURES AND CAPTIONS IV

When music and photography collide...


"🎶🎵🎵 I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same...🎶🎶🎵"
- Heavy (LINKIN PARK)



"🎶🎶🎶 If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.🎵🎵🎵"
- One Friend (DAN SEALS)


"Half of what I say is meaningless
But I say it just to reach you."
- Julia (THE BEATLES)



"🎶🎵 It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone, unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do... 🎶🎵"
- Beautiful Letdown (SWITCHFOOT)



"🎶🎵If you can't love babe,
Then you can't hurt... 🎶🎶🎶"
- Rest, Shame, Love (AUGUSTANA)



"🎶🎵 You try to breathe, you try to save it,
But it marks your skin, until they break it... 🎶🎵🎶"
- Where Love Went Wrong (AUGUSTANA)



"🎵🎶 This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in... 🎵🎶"
- Crawling (LINKIN PARK)



"🎵🎶 Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore. 🎵🎵"
- Take My Heart Back (JENNIFER LOVE HEWITT)



"🎶🎶 When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am...🎵🎶🎵"
- Iris (GOOGOO DOLLS)




"🎶🎶I want to share every moment of the day with you
And I want to share every sunset and every sunrise
And every moonlit night.🎵🎵🎶"
- Surely as the Sun (HANSONS)



"🎵🎶 So I'm playing the waiting game (still waiting)
And all I see is rain (Still raining)
Rain, rain, rain...🎶🎶"
- Raining in my Mind (THE MOFFATTS)



"🎶🎵 Go on hitch a ride on the back of a butterfly
There's no better way to fly
To get to me. 🎶🎵"
- Get to Me (TRAIN)



"🎶🎵 Won't you save me, 'cause saving is what I need
I just want to be by your side. 🎵🎵🎵"
- Save Me (HANSONS)



"🎶🎵🎶 Because maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall. 🎵🎶"
- Wonderwall (OASIS)



"🎵🎶Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me.🎵🎶🎵"
- Your Love Is a Song (SWITCHFOOT)



"🎶🎵And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me...🎶🎵🎶"
- You and I Both (JASON MRAZ)



"🎵🎶If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.🎵🎶
- If (BREAD)



"🎵🎶🎵 And in your picture book
I'm trying hard to see
Turning endless pages
Of this tragedy
Sculpting every move
You compose a symphony
And you plead to everyone
See the art in me. 🎶🎶🎶"
- Art in Me (JARS OF CLAY)



"🎵🎶Beautiful faces
Loud empty places
Look at the way that we live
Wastin' our time
On cheap talk and wine
Left us so little to give. 🎶🎶🎶"
- Best of my Love (EAGLES)



"🎵🎶 You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity...🎵🎶"
- You Needed Me (BOYZONE)



"🎵🎶 Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen...🎵🎵🎵"
- Evergreen (WESTLIFE)



"🎶🎵 When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high...🎶🎵"
- High (LIGHTHOUSE FAMILY)



"🎶🎵🎶 It's like life imitating life,
Constantly repeating history until it's blind... 🎵🎶"
- According to Plan (AUGUSTANA)



"🎵🎶 Just nursing this ghost of chance
The fiction, the romance
And the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people. 🎵🎶🎵"
- Black and White People (MATCHBOX TWENTY)



"🎶🎵🎶 And its not like, I ain't trying to get over you.
It's just hard to look at all the seasons, pass me over too...🎵🎶🎵"
- Stars and Boulevard (AUGUSTANA)