For the Force Should be Awaken

"Parang kayong birhen na umaasa sa pag-ibig ng puta!"- General Luna


Ito ang pumukaw sa aking atensyon nang aking mapanood ang pelikulang General Luna.

Sapagkat ito ay totoo.

Una sa lahat, wala akong kinukutya o hinahamak sa mga sumusunod kong pananaw. Ito ay opinion ko na nais ko lamang ibahagi.

Lahat naman tayo gusto ng marangyang buhay. Walang masama mag hangad ng ganoon. Ang akin lamang hinaing ay halos lahat ng Filipino ay gusto ng mag ibang bansa, doon mag trabaho, doon manirahan... tapos ang irarason nila ay wala daw kasi asenso dito sa Pilipinas.

Maitanong ko lang... paano aasenso ang Pilipinas kung lahat na lang ng Filipino ang gustong pag silbihan ay mga dayuhan? Gusto mabilisang pasok ng pera. Gusto dolyar ang sahurin. Gusto lahat manirahan sa ibang bansa. Wala man lang ako nakilala na gusto manilbihan sa kapwa Filipino. Ngayon sabihin ninyo paano tayo aasenso.

Sa totoo lang, ako bilang isang rehistradong Medical Technologist, madami ang mga offers sa akin na trabaho sa ibang bansa at di hamak na halos triple pa ang taas ng sahod ang iniaalok sa akin, ngunit kahit minsan hindi ako nag balak mag ibang bansa dahil ang aking rason ay ito - halos wala nang Filipino ang gustong mag serbisyo sa kapwa nila Filipino. At ako, kahit nag-iisa lang ako na naninindigan na kahit mahirap kumita ng pera dito sa ating bansa, pag sisilbihan ko ang kapwa ko Filipino at hindi ako mag papasilaw sa dolyar ng mga banyaga.

Masakit kasi pag isinisiwalat ko ang pananaw ko na "serve our countrymen first" pinagtatawanan lang ako ng mga taong nakakarinig sa akin. Na wala daw patutunguhan ang buhay ko kung puro bayan ang iisipin ko... ngunit kung wala kahit isa ang tulad ko na nag mamalasakit sa bayan at kapwa... kung lahat gusto kumita ng dolyar, sino na lang ang matitira sa Pilipinas?

Ang tunay na bayani ay ang mga Filipinong pinag sisilbihan ang kapwa Filipino at hindi ang mga nag papakasasa sa salapi ng mga dayuhan. Silang mga tinatawag na bagong bayani pero ang mga nag sisilbi sa kapwa Filipino - ano ang tawag sa kanila? WALA!!!

Pag andito ka nag tra-trabaho sa Pilipinas ang liit ng tingin sayo ng mga tao, pero pag balikbayan ka para kang prinsipe sa paningin ng lahat. Dahil dolyar ang hawak mo, para kang diyos na lumapag sa lupa.

Asan ang hustisya?

Bayani ang mga Filipinong nag sisikap kahit mahirap ang buhay dito sa ating lupang tinubuan. Bayani ang mga Filipinong hindi pinag papalit ang serbisyo para sa dolyar. Bayani ang mga Filipinong mas pinipili mag silbi sa bayan, sa kapwa Filipino, kahit maliit ang sweldo. Bayani ang mga Filipinong mahal at pinagsisilbihan ang Pilipinas.

Mabuhay ang Filipino na nagsisilbi sa kapwa Filipino.

Ang tunay na bayani ay hindi nababayaran ng salapi. Hindi nasisilaw sa magandang buhay kung ang kapalit naman ay ang pag sisilbi at paninirahan sa dayuhang bayan.

Ang tunay na bayani ay ang nag mamalasakit sa kapwa Filipino at sa ating bansa at hindi inuuna ang pang sariling karangyaan sa palad ng mga dayuhan.

Inuulit ko po, ito ay aking opinion. HINDI ko po kinukutya ang ating mga kapwa Filipino na naninilbihan sa ibang bansa. Ito po ay bilang pag tanaw din lang sa mga kapwa naten na hindi nabibigyan pansin dito mismo sa ating bayan.

Salamat po!

Pen is mightier than sword - Dr. Jose P. Rizal

Itong post na ito ay bilang isang pag gunita sa bayaning nag buwis ng buhay para sa ating bayan. Oo, nanirahan siya sa Espanya upang mag aral at hindi pag silbihan at masilaw sa karangyaan ng buhay ng mga Kastila. Ang ating pambansang bayani na si Gat Jose Rizal. Na kadalasan ay hindi nabibigyan pansin ang kanyang mga nagawa dahil nasasapawan ito nang nalalapit na pista ng bagong taon. Sana manumbalik sa puso ng bawat Filipino ang adhikain niya. Ang pag mamahal sa ating tinubuang bayan - Pilipinas

Rey of Light (Saber)

There are too many parallel stories in the Skywalker family... hence the movie is a bit different from the books released.
But all I can say is... you should never underestimate George Lucas.

My all time favorite writer/producer of the best movies.

French Prize

..and yes we bagged the first place in the competition. As the director of the said musical play, I am really proud of all my artists. They are talented and professionals. They had execute all my ideas and concepts right and beautiful. They respected my opinions and accepted my criticisms in a very professional way. Cheers to all of us.

As we accept the prize full of pride, we bring back the honor and glory to the one who had given us our talents. Our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ. Amen.

first Direction

Nostalgia embraces me this past few days because, though it is tiring enough, I am happy because I am directing a musical play in our department for our Christmas presentation. And it reminds me of my high-school days when everything is music and arts and journals. These are the things that I love to do and for the longest hiatus so far, I'm back in stage play just like when I was in high-school when music, drama and theatre is my life. But now is actually a bit different because now, I am the director. Everything, the concepts, the music, the lyrics are all originally mine. And it feels so good just to do it. Thank God for another opportunity. Thank you for the ability. Thank you for the faith. In Jesus name, Amen.

the Gray zOne

To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.

(But)The gray zone is the most crucial part of everything. That thin line between the Black and white, where everything hangs. Black is black, white is white... but the gray is so confusing enough to get lost in the middle. And in there you'll find yourself broken.

Pop'n Waters

You know when people say it's not the destination but the journey... well they are damn right and the important thing is to notice the beauty of the moment even if it is not yet the one you're waiting for. To notice the beauty of the road you're trudging even if it is not yet home. I believe that home is beautiful at the end of the day only if when you've finally reached it, you could stay awake and reminisce everything that happened on the road. Everyday we should notice the beauty that it brings even though life is tough. At the end, when breath is taken away from us, all we could take with us is each moment that our breath were taken... and it only happens when there is beauty. And beauty is in everything... only waiting to get notice. Life is beautiful with all it's ups and downs... waiting to get notice... that each moment is breath taking. Your first times like it will never happen again, the second time it happened like it only happened yesterday, the last times that you're missing all your life. I think we should live life like high-school. When everything is noticed.

I hope you notice it.

shades of grass

Grass is never greener on the other side because some grass are yellow and some are even red. And even they are not green, they are definitely beautiful.

Bloom

I don't believe that grass is greener on the other side... but I do believe that if there is something special there, then definitely, there something special in here as well...

I believe that we should bloom where we are planted. And let our fruits be everywhere it is needed

too big

Through my weakness my strength is enhanced. I'll let me be soft... so soft till I become invincible like the water. For the softness of the water is what makes it strong and powerful. It's softness makes it intangible to any friction. Fire is tamed, fire cannot harm the water. The wind cannot harm the water either, rather, it brings out the strength of the water through the crashing waves... unharmed by the rocks.

Let me drown by your amazing grace.

As universal as the water that could be as hard as ice and soft as the river flowing... as versatile as to anything that you contain it.

Softer and softer until like the water I'll be strong... so strong that nothing can harm me.

The Backbone

The problem in us is that we wish too much that we hold on too much to that wishbone that we forgot that a backbone is more important to make it all happen.

That we gotta have a backbone....that backbone to be brave enough to make it happen.

We wish too much that we keep on waiting for that shooting star to fall...

Idly waiting when in fact, we could have done something to make it happen rather than waiting for that shooting star to fall.

I have nothing against that hope on wishes but it blinds us like there's an explosion of supernova right in front of our eyes that hinder us from taking the first step to make it all happen.

The Reservation

Not all empty chairs are unoccupied...

...because some are actually reserved.

KiSs Of Autumn

Your tears glisten laced with pain

My destiny is written on paper fluttering in the wind

Distant dreams rise like incense

Melting into the night is your image

Traces of your smile on a yellowing page

And the memory of a single tenderness

And the sting of love reignites my wounds

And in the moment a single tear falls

All hatred becomes a distant blur

I live as a shadow...

Forever in the past.

Rare and Beautiful... Perfectly timed shot...

Today I did what I've been longing to do for the past couple of months. It is not that big, you know like trying to do bungee jumping or learning a new language, nothing like that though, but I was able to accomplish something for myself. Little things that could make a difference like talking to a lonely stranger. Yeah, that is what I did. I was at the park and a lonely stranger just needed someone to talk to and yup, I was the answer to his prayer. Only, I did not give him my real name and other whereabouts, of course for safety purposes because I still believe in what mothers usually say - "don't talk to strangers "...


And today, I also went to a public library and the experience was great because I do really love books and I've been dying to go to a library for the longest time and now I just did. Good job girl!!!

And I just spent the whole day by myself relaxing and doing what I love to do... arts. The art of everything.
I did some photography and wrote another raw song. Exactly what I've been longing to do so for the longest time.

Though at some point people think of this idleness as being irresponsible, but life is an obligation, an obligation to find yourself happiness. Life's achievement is not about money but how happy you are. Having a lot of money to relax and enjoy a happy life is the reason why we are working and not just to earn and earn and refuse to spend it at the end. We cannot take our money with us when we're buried six feet underground. So I say... work your ass and enjoy what you've earned.


Really, simple things are the rarest and once you got it, you are one lucky man. And yes, today is one simple day that I will cherish. A rare day for me.

Thank you Lord for this simple day. Simply beautiful day.


And with my voice praising God, in Jesus name and with the Holy Spirit,
Amen.

P.s. (a footnote about her story)
I was somebody else today. I mean, it is the other me, or should I say, what I wanted to be. I was Hannah, that was my favorite name by the way, I could trade my name for that, and I'm taking my masters degree in arts and I am in holiday here while I write about my trip because I'm a photojournalist.
But with all the buts in the world, the mind wants quietude, a peace. And the only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart. And that's where I need to go. And that's where I'm heading.

face your face

Seriously, there are some women who had ever, even for ten minutes of their lives, not worn a mascara. And seriously, I am not one of them, too much make up is NEVER my thing. I could go out with just a sunblock on my face and I'd be fine. Seriously.

Chronicles of a Solo Traveler

Jose

Cold north
Far east
Dirty south
Wild west

...but all I need is a place to be alone and happy.

Cause you can never find peace in a quiet place where people don't talk to each other.

You don't find love in a place where lust dominates.

You don't find home in a place where everyone is a stranger.

And you can't find comfort in a place of merely extravagant.

Paradises is simple.
And simplicity is actually the rarest.

crossover

L'ho provato sulla mia pelle...

Attraversiamo.

Closing your door is different from moving on.

Closing your door is an act of bitterness, it is not moving on for the mere fact that you locked yourself inside hence you can't go anywhere.

Moving on is the ability of a strong heart to open the door to that one person who hurt you. Not that you still hope that you'll still be together but it is about accepting a sorry that was never even said. Moving on is about forgiveness. And that if one day he realized your worth, you could face him with a big smile because you have a big heart that could accommodate yet another soul. Because moving on is not about closing your door to that person... but forgiving him and accepting him again... not as one you used to love but as a person that he is.

sshhh!!!

broken japa mala

Dear God,

Today my faith is in trouble, I really got a frail faith. But I thank thee for holding my hand and not letting me go when all I wanted to do is to run away from you. In these times oh Lord, when I can't understand any of these what you call your plans, strengthen my faith and understand my weakness oh Lord.

And with all these, I praise thee. I never said this to you, but though your plans are hard to understand... still, I'm a big fan of your work.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Acids and Bases

Even strong women fall like everyone else, their only difference is that...

Strong women never crash... they just land.

Brokeness Playlists (Track 3)

A time so haunting moonlight in the mist
Lay me down Beside you oh as long as it lasts
From the river comes a Figure drifting slowly by
Trailing long the water, leaving softer than a sigh
Softer than a sigh
All the feelings they remain like a still life
A dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
The rain is falling down like silence in a shroud
When All that really matters left to lose
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
All the feelings they remain like a still life
A dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
Walking from the shadows, a fear of sadness grows
Your heart is in your hand your knowing looks
Our Time is gone
My time is gone
Swan's dying song..

Brokeness Playlists (Track 2)

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Brokeness Playlists (Track 1)

Loving lying enemy
I have seen your face before
Never thought again I’d see
Didn’t want to anymore

I remember your loving eyes
And the moonlit kiss
The evening lullabies I will truly miss
Through the years we had it all
Midnight whispers, the midday calls
This house of cards, it had to fall

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel

Every time I see you
I can’t help but look away
All along I had believed everything you’d say
When I look now I know I’ve seen your face before
Don’t want your deceiving smile
Standing at my door
And I don’t care what people say
I’m ready now to face this day
Cause I've lost you along the way

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel

Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
if you have to hurt

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel.

For His Mind is Never Green

..and because I'm waiting for December since I've heard that you'll be around... can't wait til that day...

When I'll see you again...

...Master Yoda!!!

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Coming soon this December .

Until then...

Wait will I do.

Playground

"Sana sinabi mo sa akin na laro pala itong pag-ibig, e di sana nag P.E. uniform ako."


"You should have told me that this love is a game... so I could have worn my P.E. uniform. "

But really, somehow love is a game where we sometimes win and sometimes lose. We bruise our knees and sometimes we get deep wounds. We run and we chase. We laugh and we cry. But at the end of the day, we get stronger and we learn..

A Triangle Has Four Sides

Thoughts of a happy addict is what they say... but have you ever tried getting into his mind? And I'm telling you he is much deeper than all of you claiming sanity.
Mitigation... that is.


You know when they say triangle has three sides... because it is true. And like our love that had fallen apart... it became three sided. No longer a circle that symbolizes forever but a triangle that has three stories. But the impeccable truth is that... a triangle has four sides... your side, my side, her side and God's side.

And you know when they say that landing is the hardest part... because landing is painful... but you have to touch down and feel the pain for that crash might land you in the right place.

If you want to be trusted, then be honest. But I'm not sure of that honesty that once was betrayed by you. You are like a placebo... a make belief that there is a cure, a hope. But at the end of the day those stars are the only witness to that sound of a broken heart.

Break me Like a Miry Clay

Reality bites... yes, but sometimes the worse happens and that is... when reality not only bites but chews and swallows as well, then again the worst happens and that is... when reality not only choose to swallow you but digests you and you come out as shit. And it would be long enough to rebuild yourself again.

And that is reality.

strings and albums

Having courage is different from losing your fears...

Having the courage is about overcoming your fears, it means that fear is still there but you are strong enough to win against it. Losing your fear is a different thing, it means you are not thinking... and only fools don't think. If you're trying to measure the depth of an ocean, and you just jumped off with your two feet... it is NOT courage... it is called foolishness.

And a lot of wise people lived longer not because they were scared to jump, they are just wise enough to know that there are other ways and getting killed is never the best way to know the answer.

black suit, black ties and black coffees

When your boss says "I'll meet you at 7..." be there at 6.

And Thanks for the safe flight captain. You are one awesome pilot. Looking forward to meet you again. ✈🚀

the boy with a Harry Potter's eye glasses

A late post for the birthday boy...
Happy 75th John Winston Lennon

Will always be my legendary songwriter of all time.


And oh yes, he also loves panda bears.

I've paid the price and still paying for it everyday...

The Hero of Eli

They say a strong woman holds on to his husband even when he is not yet established, survive the struggles together, succeeds together, and build their own empire together.

They say I am a strong woman. Everybody tells me how I inspire them with my life story. How I survived my struggles on my own, how I succeed on my own, how I'm building my empire on my own.

And I'm alone.

Maybe I was not that strong, because I let you go when you cannot make both ends meet. You left me because you are not yet established but instead of convincing you that we can make it together, I pushed you away, criticized you on how weak you are. But you are not the only one, the truth is... you are weak but I'm the weaker one. My grip on you is so weak that a small pressure could break my hands and let you go.

I know I never said this to you but now I am telling you...
I'M SORRY!!!

I'm sorry I let you go that easy.
I'm sorry I never trusted you.
I'm sorry for being weak.
I'm sorry for pushing you away.
I'm sorry I was immature,
I'm sorry I don't know how to compromise with you.
I'm sorry for both of us.

I know time can never be rewind... and I'm sorry because all I could do now is say how sorry I am.

Please forgive me of my shortcomings back then.

God is a forgiving God...
It is me who cannot forgive...
Until now I'm struggling to forgive myself about what I did and what I did not.

Help me to forgive myself by forgiving me yourself.

And maybe through forgiveness I'll find peace...

Maybe then I'll be happy.
Just maybe.

From the Corners of My Mind

 
There are somethings money can't buy... BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT FOR SALE.

My random thoughts when I'm at my corner... thinking deep enough to drown in my own reverie.

Autumn Prose

Like autumn leaves

...I wanted to fall safely in your arms.

Like a shooting star

...I wanted to be that wish you're wishing.

Like the season of autumn where everything falls

...I wanted to fall right, straight in your heart.

And if love can overcome fear

...I wanted to be brave enough to fall in love again with YOU.

For the World is an Apple

Which do you prefer...

A small world where you cannot move,

Or a big world where you can get lost?

After all, it's a wild, weird world.

Death by Coffee

I wanna drown my bitterness in coffee.

TWO FOREVERS

One lifetime won't be enough...

I'll need two forevers with you.

Left Behind

But you left me in my darkest hour
You turned your back when I needed you most
You hated me at my worst
You criticized me at my best
You walked away from our home
You let go of my hand while I was holding you tight
You ended our forever.

Now I might be stronger but I'm broken
I am an inspiration to everyone
But I'm broken
I look beautiful in their eyes
But I'm broken
You are the villain
But I'm the one broken


Still broken...

Keep your words soft and sweet just in case you have to eat it...

Of Sweets and Chocolates

Regret is not the same as repentance for in regret, we realize our mistakes because of it's consequence, while in repentance, we realize our mistakes because of our conscience.

Hello October!

The hollowness of a guitar is what makes the sound like an echo inside it's heart.
And every beautiful song has a story to tell...
Can't wait for October's list.

HimigHandogPPopLoveSongs2016

Chronicles of a songwriter.

Of Circles and Corners

There is a great difference between mistakes and failures. Though both of them will teach you lifelong lessons, still, they are different in many ways.

Mistake is something you regret, or should I say, you should regret. You can only learn from your mistakes when you finally regret them. And not until you realized that it was a mistake, you will not learn anything from it.

Failure is inevitable. While a mistake is something you regret, failure is something you have to go through to learn. you don't have to regret when you failed, you just have to do it again.

That is their another difference...

For you should not make the same mistake twice, but if you failed... you have to do it again.

There is no glory in mistake, only redemption.

But a failure with a great attempt is glorious even in the midst of defeat.

The Best in Me

I'm not yet finish with the book but now I'm actually watching it and tears just won't dry that easy especially if it tells your story right off bat. And the pain hurts deeper when it talks about destiny and all those stuffs that I stopped believing in for so long. But look at them, they're so happy and why, just why it can't happen to me really?

And I know exactly the end of this but I just can't close my eyes. I know it will hurt at the end but I wanted to see it any way. And you know what... I guess SECOND CHANCES ARE MEANT FOR FORGIVENESS AND NOT FOR TOGETHERNESS.

It is sad to watch, but even sadder to realize that it's actually a reality.

When will it ever be...

That sweet reality.

The Twist of Charles and Oliver

It is funny to realize that in spite the fact that's right off bat, I still can't help but check you out once in a while.
And the more funny thing is that, even though I'm hurting, I still want to see it in my naked eye. And yes, once again, you whipped my heart and tore it apart like no other can. And that feeling called pain is once again drowning me... and you don't care. And the worse, I have to have faith in God that he has a plan for all of these pains. Not that I don't want to believe in it, but believe me, during these times, it it easier to quit.

How could you just walk away like that? I can't believe I had fallen in love with a monster without a heart. How could you just mock me after what I've been through because of you. I wanted to hate you. Right now I do hate you.

You are a heartless father.
You are a heartless husband.

And I can't believe God gave me you.
You ruined my idea of love.
You destroyed the reputation of love.
You made me curse fairy tales.
You made me bitter in every way life has to offer.

You ruined me.

And worse, you don't care.
You never did.

I wish the pain will just vanish like Amelia in the clouds.

You will never know this pain, because you don't have a heart to feel.

You will never, ever feel the feeling of losing because you're a monster.

You are not capable of loving.

I hate myself for loving you.
And I hate myself more for still loving you.

God grant me real happiness, and even if it's not with you.

Blessed are the shallows for depth they'll never find hence, they'll never drown.

And you are the epitome of shallowness... for it is shallow to have not a heart.

And though pain is reigning my heart, I thank God I have one.

Stephie's Post

I was at Starbucks when I saw this post and it made me laugh like I'm a crazy girl.

Even the guy sitting next to me looked at me wondering what it is all about.

But really, this is funny.

Especially the 0 and 9...

Lol!!!

Sheeran

I know my look is pretty enough to attract and intimidate anyone, so how much more if you add my wit... Definitely you'll be shaking like a leaf.

I did not push you away, you're just not brave enough that's why you walked away.

47

"What was your mistake?... "


"Your mistake is that you needed me to know you're better than me."


I told you it's on my list of favorite movies. And I've just watched it again.

SGE1815G

I've been anticipating this movie since last year and yes, it worth the wait.

There are a lot of movies and only few are great... and it's definitely on my list.

"We determine who we are in what we do."- agent 47



Can you guess why the title of this post is SGE1815G?

Painted Canvas

Your face is a picture of a thousand sunsets,
And I could just sit on the edge of the earth risking the fall.
To glance you so high, up in that blue sky, wishing I could fly.
Wondering if you might wanna look down, look down upon me.


If love suffers long, how long could it endure eternity.
If love is kind, how could it give when there's no more to give.
If love believes all things, how could you lie sincerely.
If love hopes all things, how could it face another day to live.
If love never fails...
Love made me bitter
When God is love...
Does God made me bitter.
But look us now...
Look at us now.

And the beauty of all the sun rays of the day,
Transcends like there ain't be tomorrow waiting, but I'm still waiting.
And yet the air fills my breath, I woke up alive but broken.
Drowned with those tears I have to admit but I can't deny it.

And those earthen vessels I tried my best to keep,
They are all broken now.
Young blood, child's eyes.
Innocence ain't no better than ignorance.
And the raging spirit created me a monster I'm scared of...
Set of free.

Everyone is broken... broken by the rule of love.

But isn't it the picture remains beautiful.

expose '

For quite sometime now I've been hiding my other blog...

But now I'm actually ready to expose it.


www.privatechronicles.blogspot.com

October's Lists

For love is the reason why I write...
And hope seasons each word...
And by faith it will come true.


May God guide my journey to October.

iPhone

I've been itching to blog about you... because you think I don't know but I know that you've been reading all my posts. Not that I don't want you to, believe me, I'm flattered.

It's just a matter of playing it dead all this time and yeah, I'm playing the dead too.

Thank you for reading my blog by the way. It is one thing to share insights and another thing to be followed by your insights. Thank you for following my blog.

I just want you to know that I know that you are reading all these. I never told you that I'm hacker before so now you know why I know.


And right now you're using your iPhone to read this post. Haha!

...and I know the code of your iPhone.

I told you I'm not naive... I'm just good at playing dead.

Confusion Begets Stir

I want to implant confusion in my head because it is the only way not to nurse this feeling, I try to put into words all the feelings I have inside because it is my way of escape. And I know that if I keep on talking about it then it might go away because everybody else could tell that I confused my feelings with the truth
that there's still me and you.

I told you I'm not naive...

I think I had given enough chance for these feelings now and it is time to really think about the other possibilities. If you can't be the right man then I'll give chance to others that could prove their worth.


Because the last time I checked I weighed him and found him overflowing... while you remain wanting.


And he is the confusion.

Autumn 31

And since my birthday is the first day of autumn... then let everything fall in to their right places.

Let God design our lives to be as beautiful as the season.

31

I've got nothing much to say today except for the fact that now I have regrets. When I look back, I see how far I've come but I can't escape the reality of my mistakes.

And yes, someone once told me that immaturity is when you never had regrets in life.

Well now I got it all coming.

And though I've learned a lot from my mistakes, still, I regret them now, and though even if I have the chance to bring back the time, I know I would still do those things, still, I regret them. It is the feeling of regret even though you know that without those mistakes you can never be wiser.

Shame on you you fool me once.
Shame on me you fool me twice.

But it's not about being a fool, I know exactly what I'm doing,

I am not naive... I just love you enough to pretend to be.

Land With Me

Morning has always been my favorite part of the day, I love breakfast because it is when I can think about all the things that accumulated in my mind overnight.

So here's what I thought...

You know when they say that eventually everything will fall into their right places, or should I say everything will land into their right places. Well, that is a good thing, really.

But in the process of falling apart, believe me, your mind cannot force you to believe in that better place beyond the bent.

And yes, my life right now is in that phase where everything is falling apart and all I could do is watch and pray that, really, they will all land safely into their right places.

And if everything crashes... land with me.

GREGorian Calendar

Small world... could you imagine.

When we were still together with my ex I always get jealous with this girl... and guess what? Her boyfriend now was actually a very close friend of mine when I was in college. I just found out today when her picture appeared on my Facebook when we're not even friends. What a small world. And funny destiny indeed.hahaha!!!