If you will always believe that bad things happen because you've done something wrong...

Then Redemption has lost it's power on you.

Like a Game of Chess

But life...

Like a game of chess...

Not because you moved back

Means you're losing.

Sometimes we have to move back

Because that is the only way to Win.

 

The Vision

 But Imagination is Good...

Imagination is necessary...

Imagination is a vision of what you want to achieve.

But if you cannot see it,

Then how can you reach it?

So you have to see it...

Maybe Not with your eyes...

But with your mind.

Find Beauty in Everything

Of Pain and Freedom

Letting go and moving on are words often used after a break up or after a sudden painful event happened in our lives. Simple words but as they say... Hard to do.

But now I want to share to you some of my personal insights regarding letting go and moving on which are very effective to me.

Let alone are my blog posts 😁... Most of it are just emotions created by my imaginations. 

They may sound too broken, but they are mostly extracted from the thoughts that never happened that I just tried to feel what it is like to be. So yes, they sound so broken but it is not I who is in pain.

So here are some ways, which hopefully could help people who are struggling to move on as well.

Though I know that we are all different people with different personalities, different levels of tolerance and state of minds. But perhaps, this will help.

Here it is...

First, you gotta trust your instincts. Before the final goodbyes, before the dead end, red flags will start to appear on every corners of the relationship. It will be very obvious and very impossible not to notice. Your instincts will tell you that sooner it will end. So better trust that instinct of yours.

So while everything is still in the process of falling apart, you have to start there. Start moving on. Start accepting that this will end sooner or later and be ok with that. Start accepting that you cannot do anything to save it and that you've done your best but it is never meant to stay. 

The sooner you start accepting the end, the sooner you'll be ok. So when the time comes when you have to finally say your last goodbyes, you already moved on. Yes, there is still pain, but the pain is mostly just about the fact that this is it. The end. But the attachment has long been gone... The connection has long been  broken.

After the break up, you have to feel the pain, let it wash you so you could finally feel the meaning of freedom, and how happy it is to be free again.

I am not saying that this is applicable to all, but it is worth to try. After all we all deserve to be happy again. 🥰

 

Barefoot

 But even the deepest oceans 

Cannot fathom your deep mind.

And I tried to meet you there...

Barefoot.

Only to find...

It is an abyss.

Brightest Rainbows

 If you want a colorful life...

Then be prepared to get rained.

Remember, the brightest rainbows happen after the hardest storms.

For a Mind can never ran out of Art...

 

 It is never the question of "When?"

But sometimes...

I just feel the blessed immunity that is granted forever to me.

And in times that I wanted to write you...

In times that I am writing about you...

I feel so invincible.

That no matter what the state of my emotional quest is...

I can survive it.

For I am a warrior.

Betrayed by the Stars

But aren't we all are victims?

Betrayed by the stars.

Aren't we all asked for signs?

So specific and so impossible.

But the Impossible happened, right?

How's that possible?

Well because the stars heard you.

The heavens answered.

There goes your sign.

But answered signs

Are not answered prayers.

There we go on praying.

Until signs become red flags.

Red flags turn into dead ends.

That is where we stop. Wonder. Ask.

We are betrayed by the stars. By the Orion and constellations and shooting stars.

But where is my Orion when it's pouring fire and rain?

Where do the stars keep all the wishes whispered to them in the silence of the night?

Where do the stars write all the prayers of the fervent hearts?

Is it all in vain?

Are all the words been left out in the black hole to vanish?

And in the silence of the night

We watch the stars yet again.

Asking for a reason to believe in...

That it is all part of the better plan.

We keep our faith on the stars still.

In the hopes that there's still a way.

For the milky way to change whatever is written in the stars.

 

The Broken Playlist

In the next days...

Or maybe months...

It will be all about sad stories.

Bear with my brokenness, will you? 

For the Signs We Believed In

This one is for those

Who believed but betrayed

With their own faith.

Who asked for signs.

Of signs so unique,

And so specific,

Just to be deceived.

But with all the reasons

We believed in.

This is for the treason

We now lived in.

So this one is for those

Who believed but betrayed.

Of signs so unique

But in the end left strewn.

With the another wave

Of brokenness.

Didn't we learn from the first?

But still we tried

With cracked hearts

Believing this time it will mend.

So here's to the ones who believed,

Betrayed but keep on believing.

Here's for the signs we asked

For the signs given but remained a sign.

Like a promise so promising

But left to be just a promise

And still undone.

I hope someday we find answers.

I hope someday we'll understand.

Why and how long we must hold on?

With those signs that I kept for seven years.

I hope the heaven won't hold it against me.

If I let go with those promises

Written in the stars.

For who knows who can read it.

And who knows if the stars are keeping it.

All I know is that...

A heart can still beat

In spite of brokenness.

 

To Write You a Love Song, For One Last Time

Could I write you a love song

For one last time?

Pour my heart and soul in it,

Like it is really the last time.

Pour all my love in it,

So I could unlove you.

Pour all my pain in it,

So I would no longer hurt.

Pour all my tears in it,

So it will run dry.

I will drink with your glass

So fragile but beautiful.

But I will not pour beers and vodka,

I know much better than that.

I'll be drunk with coffee

And music, and memories.

While drowning with the new waves

Of brokenness.

And I will remember how strange

My reality and my faith.

I will remember how I asked God to spell Love

And He gave me your name.

Now I asked again why I am in pain.

But He just said,

He taught you how to love,

But that doesn't mean he will love you back.

And maybe it was just my mind

Playing tricks to deceive my heart.

But just to remember what it was like...

I write you this love song...

For the last time.

For One

While most people would come to me for help...

And all I can do is give them a piece of me.

Here I am...

Carrying my own baggage...

All alone.

A tea for one...

And no one to sympathize.😔

 

Different Lyrics

 And she's singing Savage Garden songs...

But in different lyrics...

Saying...

"If I'll fly to the moon, then  I won't be back".

To Unlove You

But my mind is full...

Of things and tales

That will never happen.

And most of it

Is about You.

I'm chasing sunsets

Because I can no

Longer chase You.

I'm preparing myself

Not to hate someone

But to unlove You.

Cause time and time

And even time

Has given up my chances with You.

 

Chasing Sunsets at the Harbour