Ghost of the Undead

 But I am forever be haunted

By your ghost.

Even though you're not dead.

It is like I'm moving on,

But not forgetting.

Never forgetting.

I will always remember.

But I will no longer wait for you.

There's no time for us anymore.

I will no longer kneel every night,

Whispering same old mantras that "May our stars align."

I will be moving on with my life,

As you walk your own separate path.

No looking back.

I won't take you back.

I will not let you make mistakes

That will tear you apart.

Stay where you belong.

It's the best for you.

And I will find what's best for me too.

Emptied

I dreamt of you again last night.

But probably it would be my last.

Unless you'll haunt me for the rest of my life,

Then I'll be haunted by the ghost of the undead.

The dream was more than sad.

It was vast emptiness.

As you were saying your last goodbyes.

I was crying to death.

You said you'll be looking out for me,

Even when you're away.

But deep within I knew,

I needed to let you go your own  way.

Cause you're no longer mine to hold,

Cause you have to be somewhere else.

Place that you truly belong,

Place where I am not supposed to long.

And so more than deep sadness.

I was feeling empty in my dreams...

And it felt so real when I woke up.

Suddenly...

My dream was real after all. 

Heard the news today...

Oh! It's everywhere.

And yes...

I need to let you go...

I must let you go...

More than sad...

I feel so empty now.

Like I was stripped away from my only hope.

The last of the hopes that I was holding on is now gone.

And there's nothing I can do.

Not even my fervent prayers can be answered.

For it was answered a long time ago...

I just found it now.

I have lost you along the way...

And I wasn't aware til now.

And there's no more prayers to kneel for at night.

The stars will shine,

But they will no longer align.

The moon will peep from the clouds,

But it will no longer listen to my silent whines.

The universe will continue,

But they will no longer conspire for you and me.

The earth will move but my world will no longer revolve around thee.

And so the greatest love story 

That wasn't even written in the first place,

Ended before it has begun.

It was all just in my imaginations now.

The last embrace...

The last phrase...

It was the closure

That was closed...

A long time ago.

And my heart beats the same...

But More than sad...

It is now empty.

You Cannot Trust the Mountains

 But you cannot trust the mountains to move for you.

Because even if they have their feet,

How can you be so sure

That they're willing to walk just for you.

But you cannot trust the mountains to move for you.

It was never a question of your faith,

Or faithfulness of the purest of the pure.

But are they willing to do it just for you.

But you cannot trust the mountains to move for you.

They're maybe made of piles of dirt

But you're just the same dust somewhere off shore.

You must do your will for you.

Changing Chapters

 Take me into places,

Where it doesn't hurt.

Away from my memories,

That I can't forget.

Pictures that I took,

Meant to be on fire.

Letters that I wrote,

Addressed to the shredder.

Poetries made of scars,

Songs wounded by the time.

Like prayers you say at the altar,

Like a pilgrim with no divine.

So I rewrite all my proses,

Changing chapters and titles,

From every word and all the verses,

Til all the lines become circles.

Karma

 But watch your dirty mouth,

Watch your diabolic thoughts.

Watch your filthy little schemes,

Watch your wicked means.

Cause karma is watching over you.

Karma is coming to get you.

Karma is just a minute away,

Karma is on it's way...

To all you dirty politics,

Diabolic tactics,

Filthy gossips,

Wicked plannings.

Watch out cause karma is watching over you.

Somebody Else's Story

 But...

I was traumatized even before I was afflicted.

I was broken by somebody else's story even before my own story happened.

Hence...

The wounds are not mine...

But it was on my skin.

These scars do not belong to me...

But they are carved beneath my flesh.

And it is the burden I carry...

Though it is not mine in the first place.

So I left that baggage...

Cause it is not mine after all.