Rare and Beautiful... Perfectly timed shot...

Today I did what I've been longing to do for the past couple of months. It is not that big, you know like trying to do bungee jumping or learning a new language, nothing like that though, but I was able to accomplish something for myself. Little things that could make a difference like talking to a lonely stranger. Yeah, that is what I did. I was at the park and a lonely stranger just needed someone to talk to and yup, I was the answer to his prayer. Only, I did not give him my real name and other whereabouts, of course for safety purposes because I still believe in what mothers usually say - "don't talk to strangers "...


And today, I also went to a public library and the experience was great because I do really love books and I've been dying to go to a library for the longest time and now I just did. Good job girl!!!

And I just spent the whole day by myself relaxing and doing what I love to do... arts. The art of everything.
I did some photography and wrote another raw song. Exactly what I've been longing to do so for the longest time.

Though at some point people think of this idleness as being irresponsible, but life is an obligation, an obligation to find yourself happiness. Life's achievement is not about money but how happy you are. Having a lot of money to relax and enjoy a happy life is the reason why we are working and not just to earn and earn and refuse to spend it at the end. We cannot take our money with us when we're buried six feet underground. So I say... work your ass and enjoy what you've earned.


Really, simple things are the rarest and once you got it, you are one lucky man. And yes, today is one simple day that I will cherish. A rare day for me.

Thank you Lord for this simple day. Simply beautiful day.


And with my voice praising God, in Jesus name and with the Holy Spirit,
Amen.

P.s. (a footnote about her story)
I was somebody else today. I mean, it is the other me, or should I say, what I wanted to be. I was Hannah, that was my favorite name by the way, I could trade my name for that, and I'm taking my masters degree in arts and I am in holiday here while I write about my trip because I'm a photojournalist.
But with all the buts in the world, the mind wants quietude, a peace. And the only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart. And that's where I need to go. And that's where I'm heading.

face your face

Seriously, there are some women who had ever, even for ten minutes of their lives, not worn a mascara. And seriously, I am not one of them, too much make up is NEVER my thing. I could go out with just a sunblock on my face and I'd be fine. Seriously.

Chronicles of a Solo Traveler

Jose

Cold north
Far east
Dirty south
Wild west

...but all I need is a place to be alone and happy.

Cause you can never find peace in a quiet place where people don't talk to each other.

You don't find love in a place where lust dominates.

You don't find home in a place where everyone is a stranger.

And you can't find comfort in a place of merely extravagant.

Paradises is simple.
And simplicity is actually the rarest.

crossover

L'ho provato sulla mia pelle...

Attraversiamo.

Closing your door is different from moving on.

Closing your door is an act of bitterness, it is not moving on for the mere fact that you locked yourself inside hence you can't go anywhere.

Moving on is the ability of a strong heart to open the door to that one person who hurt you. Not that you still hope that you'll still be together but it is about accepting a sorry that was never even said. Moving on is about forgiveness. And that if one day he realized your worth, you could face him with a big smile because you have a big heart that could accommodate yet another soul. Because moving on is not about closing your door to that person... but forgiving him and accepting him again... not as one you used to love but as a person that he is.

sshhh!!!

broken japa mala

Dear God,

Today my faith is in trouble, I really got a frail faith. But I thank thee for holding my hand and not letting me go when all I wanted to do is to run away from you. In these times oh Lord, when I can't understand any of these what you call your plans, strengthen my faith and understand my weakness oh Lord.

And with all these, I praise thee. I never said this to you, but though your plans are hard to understand... still, I'm a big fan of your work.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Acids and Bases

Even strong women fall like everyone else, their only difference is that...

Strong women never crash... they just land.

Brokeness Playlists (Track 3)

A time so haunting moonlight in the mist
Lay me down Beside you oh as long as it lasts
From the river comes a Figure drifting slowly by
Trailing long the water, leaving softer than a sigh
Softer than a sigh
All the feelings they remain like a still life
A dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
The rain is falling down like silence in a shroud
When All that really matters left to lose
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
All the feelings they remain like a still life
A dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
Walking from the shadows, a fear of sadness grows
Your heart is in your hand your knowing looks
Our Time is gone
My time is gone
Swan's dying song..

Brokeness Playlists (Track 2)

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Brokeness Playlists (Track 1)

Loving lying enemy
I have seen your face before
Never thought again I’d see
Didn’t want to anymore

I remember your loving eyes
And the moonlit kiss
The evening lullabies I will truly miss
Through the years we had it all
Midnight whispers, the midday calls
This house of cards, it had to fall

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel

Every time I see you
I can’t help but look away
All along I had believed everything you’d say
When I look now I know I’ve seen your face before
Don’t want your deceiving smile
Standing at my door
And I don’t care what people say
I’m ready now to face this day
Cause I've lost you along the way

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel

Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
if you have to hurt

And you ask for forgiveness
You’re asking too much
I have sheltered my heart in a place you can’t touch
Don’t believe when you tell me your love is real
Because you don’t know much about heaven boy
If you have to hurt to feel.

For His Mind is Never Green

..and because I'm waiting for December since I've heard that you'll be around... can't wait til that day...

When I'll see you again...

...Master Yoda!!!

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Coming soon this December .

Until then...

Wait will I do.

Playground

"Sana sinabi mo sa akin na laro pala itong pag-ibig, e di sana nag P.E. uniform ako."


"You should have told me that this love is a game... so I could have worn my P.E. uniform. "

But really, somehow love is a game where we sometimes win and sometimes lose. We bruise our knees and sometimes we get deep wounds. We run and we chase. We laugh and we cry. But at the end of the day, we get stronger and we learn..

A Triangle Has Four Sides

Thoughts of a happy addict is what they say... but have you ever tried getting into his mind? And I'm telling you he is much deeper than all of you claiming sanity.
Mitigation... that is.


You know when they say triangle has three sides... because it is true. And like our love that had fallen apart... it became three sided. No longer a circle that symbolizes forever but a triangle that has three stories. But the impeccable truth is that... a triangle has four sides... your side, my side, her side and God's side.

And you know when they say that landing is the hardest part... because landing is painful... but you have to touch down and feel the pain for that crash might land you in the right place.

If you want to be trusted, then be honest. But I'm not sure of that honesty that once was betrayed by you. You are like a placebo... a make belief that there is a cure, a hope. But at the end of the day those stars are the only witness to that sound of a broken heart.

Break me Like a Miry Clay

Reality bites... yes, but sometimes the worse happens and that is... when reality not only bites but chews and swallows as well, then again the worst happens and that is... when reality not only choose to swallow you but digests you and you come out as shit. And it would be long enough to rebuild yourself again.

And that is reality.

strings and albums

Having courage is different from losing your fears...

Having the courage is about overcoming your fears, it means that fear is still there but you are strong enough to win against it. Losing your fear is a different thing, it means you are not thinking... and only fools don't think. If you're trying to measure the depth of an ocean, and you just jumped off with your two feet... it is NOT courage... it is called foolishness.

And a lot of wise people lived longer not because they were scared to jump, they are just wise enough to know that there are other ways and getting killed is never the best way to know the answer.

black suit, black ties and black coffees

When your boss says "I'll meet you at 7..." be there at 6.

And Thanks for the safe flight captain. You are one awesome pilot. Looking forward to meet you again. ✈🚀

the boy with a Harry Potter's eye glasses

A late post for the birthday boy...
Happy 75th John Winston Lennon

Will always be my legendary songwriter of all time.


And oh yes, he also loves panda bears.

I've paid the price and still paying for it everyday...

The Hero of Eli

They say a strong woman holds on to his husband even when he is not yet established, survive the struggles together, succeeds together, and build their own empire together.

They say I am a strong woman. Everybody tells me how I inspire them with my life story. How I survived my struggles on my own, how I succeed on my own, how I'm building my empire on my own.

And I'm alone.

Maybe I was not that strong, because I let you go when you cannot make both ends meet. You left me because you are not yet established but instead of convincing you that we can make it together, I pushed you away, criticized you on how weak you are. But you are not the only one, the truth is... you are weak but I'm the weaker one. My grip on you is so weak that a small pressure could break my hands and let you go.

I know I never said this to you but now I am telling you...
I'M SORRY!!!

I'm sorry I let you go that easy.
I'm sorry I never trusted you.
I'm sorry for being weak.
I'm sorry for pushing you away.
I'm sorry I was immature,
I'm sorry I don't know how to compromise with you.
I'm sorry for both of us.

I know time can never be rewind... and I'm sorry because all I could do now is say how sorry I am.

Please forgive me of my shortcomings back then.

God is a forgiving God...
It is me who cannot forgive...
Until now I'm struggling to forgive myself about what I did and what I did not.

Help me to forgive myself by forgiving me yourself.

And maybe through forgiveness I'll find peace...

Maybe then I'll be happy.
Just maybe.

From the Corners of My Mind

 
There are somethings money can't buy... BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT FOR SALE.

My random thoughts when I'm at my corner... thinking deep enough to drown in my own reverie.

Autumn Prose

Like autumn leaves

...I wanted to fall safely in your arms.

Like a shooting star

...I wanted to be that wish you're wishing.

Like the season of autumn where everything falls

...I wanted to fall right, straight in your heart.

And if love can overcome fear

...I wanted to be brave enough to fall in love again with YOU.

For the World is an Apple

Which do you prefer...

A small world where you cannot move,

Or a big world where you can get lost?

After all, it's a wild, weird world.

Death by Coffee

I wanna drown my bitterness in coffee.

TWO FOREVERS

One lifetime won't be enough...

I'll need two forevers with you.

Left Behind

But you left me in my darkest hour
You turned your back when I needed you most
You hated me at my worst
You criticized me at my best
You walked away from our home
You let go of my hand while I was holding you tight
You ended our forever.

Now I might be stronger but I'm broken
I am an inspiration to everyone
But I'm broken
I look beautiful in their eyes
But I'm broken
You are the villain
But I'm the one broken


Still broken...

Keep your words soft and sweet just in case you have to eat it...

Of Sweets and Chocolates

Regret is not the same as repentance for in regret, we realize our mistakes because of it's consequence, while in repentance, we realize our mistakes because of our conscience.

Hello October!

The hollowness of a guitar is what makes the sound like an echo inside it's heart.
And every beautiful song has a story to tell...
Can't wait for October's list.

HimigHandogPPopLoveSongs2016

Chronicles of a songwriter.

Of Circles and Corners

There is a great difference between mistakes and failures. Though both of them will teach you lifelong lessons, still, they are different in many ways.

Mistake is something you regret, or should I say, you should regret. You can only learn from your mistakes when you finally regret them. And not until you realized that it was a mistake, you will not learn anything from it.

Failure is inevitable. While a mistake is something you regret, failure is something you have to go through to learn. you don't have to regret when you failed, you just have to do it again.

That is their another difference...

For you should not make the same mistake twice, but if you failed... you have to do it again.

There is no glory in mistake, only redemption.

But a failure with a great attempt is glorious even in the midst of defeat.