We are all born in this world looking for love, but sometimes, we settle for attention. - Armed

Mornings at the balcony.

Spilling Pills

We are hated cause we're great,
We are lied to cause we're kind,
We are the target cause we're strong,
And all we could do is overcome.

And there's no cure for their insecurities,
No therapy for their disabilities,
No doctor could heal
So let the drugs and pills spill
Choking the inner core of their skills
Purge their inner animosity
Change their way to humanity.

Till then we are to be hated,
To be lied to and be the target.
But we keep on rising,
Strong, triumphant, and overcoming.

Morning Peak

"I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset" - Boston (Augustana)

EMPTY

Home is not a place,
It is a moment.
Moments when you feel safe,
Happy, and contented.

But time changes our hearts,
It makes us long for
Things we don't have,
Things that are not there.

In a home where it no longer
Fits and saves you
From your monters,
It's no longer a home for you.

When all that is left is empty
Spaces that can no longer fill.
Time makes you lonely,
Time can no longer heal.

Growth becomes stagnant
Like waters of the dead.
All living but decaying,
All dying inside our heads.

And time will surely
Tell when spaces are filled,
When emotions are healed,
Till then, everything is empty.

Giigwishimowin

Could I meet you again for the first time?
Rewrite everything from day one,
Take back all the wrong things we've done,
And never ever cross that line.

Wish we had a little more time,
Before I walked out all alone,
Regret eats me to the bone,
Reliving those memories so fine.

Winter's clock stopped the time,
Snow has long been gone,
But I still shiver under the sun,
Autumn chills never left my side.

Am I your greatest disappointment all this time,
Cause I refused to be the perfect victim - damn!
Of these crimes waiting to be done,
All the lies of love lurking behind the mist of time.

Anthem

This song is the anthem of my 2019.
From last year's Ups and downs, I proved myself as a real fighter. And in the midst of darkness... I know I still got a shot in the dark... and I got my shot and I will not let it slip away.

Shot in the Dark
(By:Augustana)
I had a vision for the life that was ahead of me
I had a reason, I had a right and had a destiny
I thought I knew where I was headed
I would never look back
I had it all and then I went and let it slip away
I'm working overtime, I'm gonna make it anyway
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose,
Sometimes you never get her back, oh you know
But I'm
Rising up slowly and getting higher
I've been living with a hole in my heart
It's weighing down on me, but I'm a fighter
But I know I still got a shot in the dark
Baby, we still got a shot in the dark
Sometimes in life you meet the people that you think you trust
Wake up one day, you find that everything had turned to dust
I always knew that you'd be waiting for me when I got back
Waiting when I came
Rising up slowly and getting higher
I've been living with a hole in my heart
It's weighing down on me, but I'm a fighter
But I know I still got a shot in the dark
Baby we still got a shot in the dark
I'm gonna find a way
I'm gonna find a way out
I'm gonna find a way
I got a vision for the life that's right in front of me
I got a right, I got a reason, got a destiny
I know exactly where I'm headed and I'm never looking back
Well, nothing's holding me back
Well, nothing's holding me back
From rising up slowly and getting higher
I've been living with a hole in my heart
Weighing down on me man, well I'm a fighter
But I know I still got a shot in the dark
Rising up slowly, I'm getting higher
I've been living with a hole in my heart
Weighing down on me, baby I'm a fighter
I know I still got a shot in the dark
Baby, we still got a shot in the dark
And I know that I still got a shot

Drawing Orion

I was dancing
On the top
Of my coffee cup
Hot, dark, and bitter thing.

You were drowning
In the middle
Of the bottle
Of dry gin.

Was it a divine intervention?
To fulfill a prophecy
To make it a reality
To grasp it's intention.

When our parallel
Universe bend to meet
Our stars aligned underneath
A story to tell.

Constellation
Writing our parts
Guiding our hearts
Drawing Orion.

In a hard, dark, and bitter
World we are in
We still can sing
Our hearts safe and better.

No more dark coffee
No more dancing
No more dry gin
Just you and me.