Devouring

When Pesto is Life...

But Coffee is still LIFER!!!

Amidst the news that CNN broke regarding my workplace...

We're all still breathing and I'm still taking my selfie. 😊

We're not panicking...
We're just Praying for our safety.

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#5 Land With Me

Don't go falling into somebody's arms

For they're not your rightful places.

Cause if finally you wanted to jump

Then take my hand and Land with Me.

Hopes Unbroken

I realized that for the past 2 years I haven't written a decent song...

In fact, I didn't write any song at all.

And I'm missing a lot of chances...

And all for the reason... I'm running out of words...

Or maybe...
I ran out of inspiration.

Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me
Your love is a song...
I've been keeping my hopes unbroken.

Solace

I'm needing an inspiration...

So I turn on my playlist. 🎧

Nobody said it was easy...

But I'm trying my best cause I know...

It worth it.

FINDING SOLACE IN MUSIC.

Tribute for the Black Mamba

I remember my childhood with this man...

He was my first NBA favourite...

I can relate with those memes of throwing paper balls into trash with a slow-motion jump and once I shoot it, I would raise my arms and shout KOBE 3 POINTS!

 (Some of the perks of growing up in the 90's)

And I could only look back and say...

"Those were the days"

We even wear the same number.

#24

And now I remember this song way back then...

It's ringing in my head right now.

"🎶🎶 Now we're never gonna see him slam
Flyin' as high as Kobe can
His life was stole Oh! Oh! Now we'll never know... 🎶" - STOLE (Kelly Rowland)

RIP KOBE 😞

Unfinished Business

Been wanting and trying to write a song for you.

But all these years I've been trying and looking for words that suits you.

And until now I haven't found one perfect word to describe a piece of you.

So the song in my mind still remains an inspiration without a note...

Without a lyric...

Without a tune...

Westlife Mode

🎧🎶 I'll build a wall around my heart 

that would only break a part for you...🎶🎶 

Choosing YOU

These moments when chances are coming every way

And I am on the verge of taking the very first hand coming my way

I have to remind myself

That I have to choose You.

Chances come and swiftly go

And I doubt myself if I made the right decision

Of telling myself

That I must choose You.

Times when I grasp something I wanted to hold on

I try hard to remember our song

Because I almost forgot to myself

That I needed to choose You.

So I let it all go,

I let it all slipped away

Those chances that might not be coming back my way

I don't have clear answers for myself...

But I will always choose You.

Everyday I will choose You.

Deep Inside of You

I don't feel you..

But surprisingly...

I'm alright.

Genuine happiness is when you don't depend that feeling on anything or anyone...

Not your loved one...

Not your child...

Not your money... 

But deep inside of you.

🌹🌹🌹

ROSES

(Darren Hayes)

What if I told you that your time was up,

That as every second passes there's a moment gone,

In 23 hours the sun is gonna set forever,

Would you hug a little tighter,

Would you let go first,

Would you focus on love then forget the hurt,

Live in the moment or wish your life away,

How would you spend you last night on Earth,

Would you kiss your enemies,

Say sorry first,

Would you take enough time to say your last goodbye,

All the little battles that you never won,

All the music and the opera never sung,

Emotions that were silent all these years,

You can't smell the roses when you're gone,

You can't smell the roses,

No it's not a rehearsal,

You only get one life so make it right,

You can't smell the roses when you're gone,

So live every moment like this is the last night on Earth,

Because this is the last night on Earth,

What if I told you that I had regrets,

I would trade in all my happiness for one last kiss,

For a minute or two lying by your side,

What I chose a road no-body walked,

If I arted all my promises with empty talk,

If I knew back then the things that I know now,

I would tell you that I love you then we'd all get low

There are Peaks and there are Valley's,

You've got to know,

Second chance,

You've really comes around

You can't smell the roses when you're gone,

You can't smell the roses,

No it's not a rehearsal,

You only get one life so make it right,

You can't smell the roses when you're gone,

So live every moment like this is the last night on Earth,

cuz this is the last night on Earth,

I can hear you calling my name...

Behind these gray walls.

Never confuse Freedom from 

being Lost.

Life is a Series of Cram

Life is a series of cram...

That is why coffee was invented...

To keep us up while cramming for our dues. 🤔

When you looked over your shoulder

For a minute, I forget that I'm older...

By His FAITHFULNESS

I realized that we don't walk by faith but...

We walk by His Faithfulness.


Because we are weak and fragile creatures with frail faith.
If it is our faith we're holding on, we'd be lost a long time ago.

But because of His faithfulness that He will never leave us, that He will guide us and take us by hands...

That is why we are still on the right track.

WE ARE NOT THE ONE HOLDING ON...
REMEMBER WE ARE WEAK...
WE LET GO THAT EASY.
THE ONLY REASON WHY WE'RE STILL ON HOLD IS BECAUSE...
IT IS HIM HOLDING US.

SO WE WALK...
NOT by our faith...
BUT BY HIS FAITHFULNESS.

I WALK BY HIS FAITHFULNESS

Wolf Moon

I got a vision for the life that's right in front of me

I got a right, I got a reason, got a destiny

I know exactly where I'm headed and I'm never looking back

Well, nothing's holding me back

From rising up slowly and getting higher

I've been living with a hole in my heart

Weighing down on me man, well I'm a fighter

But I know I still got a shot in the dark.

I know I still got a shot in the dark.

Strong is Beautiful

I was born to be a winner...

So they raised me as a fighter.

Win Your Heart

I'll write a song for You...

I may not win in the competition...

But maybe I could win Your Heart.

Forever

I've found my forever

With my daughter.

#MotherDaughterLoveRings

Most

God doesn't always say yes to all our prayers...
But MOST OF THE TIME...
Yes... HE SAYS YES.

Amidst all the other circumstances...

I want to be the reason for myself on why I still have faith in humanity.

Pursue

I want my daughter to know that college diploma will not hinder her from pursuing her passions in life.

I want her to know that she can be knowledgeable and creative at the same time.

I want her to realize that a college degree is her stepping stone to actually pursue her passions.

That she can be a doctor and an artist at the same time.

I am a medical scientist... But I still play guitar along with my band, I paint, I write, I sing and dance, I still act on stage plays, and I still do photography.

In fact, my job is the reason why I can do all this... Because my job is my source of fund so I can pursue my passion in arts.

So I want my daughter to realize how important education is.

The key so you could pursue your passion is your college degree...

Because when you're finally earning...

YOU CAN.

In times when I feel like I'm losing my faith...

That is when you are most faithful.

Thank you, Lord.

Amen.

Perfect

I saw this at the back of my daughter's notebook and at that very moment I know to myself that I've never felt so perfect as much as I feel right now.

Me, Myself, and I

Even the strongest person needs that One Friend he/she can show off his/her weaker side...

I've been leaning on to my Own shoulder for the longest time...

It feels like the only person I could show off my weaker side is also Myself.

So I have to be strong for myself...

"Master your Fear so it cannot control you."

Deeper Sounds

It's never too late to buy yourself a gift for Christmas...

And it's never too early to buy yourself a gift for Chinese New Year. 🤣

Because there are some things that we just can't live without.

For the new decade of deeper sounds...

Other Side of Life

So as you go to find yourself,
Don't look too hard,
You may pass yourself by,
Reaching too high,
Wanting the other side of life.
And as you go to take your place,
Don't go too fast,
Just pretend there's no end,
Make yourself last
Till the other side of iife.
One day you'll find
Your restless searching at an end,
You'll think the world has changed
But it's just you my friend.
So as you go to please your heart.
Please take your time,
Someone's waiting there too,
Waiting for you
On the other side of life.
(CTTO)

Just Saying

I don't live my life theoretically.

So don't brag to me what you've read in books and compare it to my life's experiences. It just doesn't suit my reality...

Wrapping Up My Lecture 2.0

If you can't share the gospel...
Then might as well Share your Wisdom rather than gossip.

Wrapping Up My Lecture

The highest form of learning is not the application of one's knowledge but how you can impart to others what you know, for wisdom is useless if not shared.

Learning new but Old song...

Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko
Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo
Handa na 'kong hamunin ang aking mundo
'Pagka't tuloy pa rin...

I don't bargain...

I don't know how to bargain...

Because I've learned a long time ago Not to.

Trading Happiness

NEVER trade your happiness just to get what you've always wanted...
Because you might also lose that thing you've always wanted because it is also your happiness.


Thinking deep while walking home.

CTTO:

Just blogging my friend's Facebook post...

Because it is definitely inspiring. 😊

Detoxify

If life gives you Lemons...

Maybe you need to Detoxify.

Oh!... GOD! 😁🤣

Hole and Hollowness

Since my guitar string is broken...
I find solace with my Ukelele.

And I realized that...

Getting an OPTION is like covering a hole.
It could cover up the HOLE but Cannot FILL UP the HOLLOWNESS inside.
You know deep inside that something is missing.

An Option will never fill that hollowness in your heart and soul.
You will always feel that vast emptiness until you find the one you're looking for.

So I say...
NEVER SETTLE ON WHAT / WHO IS AVAILABLE...
PURSUE YOUR HEART'S DESIRE FOR IT IS THE ONLY WAY TO FILL THE HOLLOWNESS INSIDE AND COVER THE HOLE FOR YOU.

(Getting witty with my music 😁)

Like a Phoenix I was born...

From Ash and Ember!

Since 1993

My guitar string snapped out last weekend and I'm already missing my guitar now.

I should have bought a string but I wanted a new one this year...

So...

I can't wait til next week... 😩

I'm imagining right now what color to buy.

...there are somethings in life we just can't live without.

Believe me... 

I just can't survive without it...

Since 1993.

Back To You

Life is like a different sets of music playlists...

We shuffle...
We jump from one song to another...
We discover new music...
We tend to love new artists...
We outgrow some old ones...
We cry with the lyrics...
We dance with the melodies...

But we always end up listening to the ones that made us feel like we are at home.
We end up to the ones who hold a space in our hearts.
We end up to the ones who are with us throughout our journey.
We end up to the ones we never fell out of love with even though we have fallen in love a hundred times.

We skip...
We replay...
We try some new beats...

But we always go back to the one that holds our heart and ears. 🎧🎶

Life is a playlist...

May your playlists nourish your new decade!

Just a thought while procrastinating on a cozy Saturday afternoon. 😁

The Greater Man

CTTO:
(Credits to the owner of this Facebook post and to those who commented on it)

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I saw this Marvel post and those people who dropped their comments and can't help but blog about it.

So here is My humble opinion:

The truth is...

All of us are heroes and villains all at the same time.

A man's actions depend on what he believes.

It is his faith guiding him...

Who are we to say if he's right or wrong...

We all do what seems to be right in our own eyes.

We all fight Not because of Hate But Because of Love.

We go to war and fight in the battlefield NOT because we hate those people we are fighting with BUT because we Love those people at our back that we are saving.

In our eyes, the villains are those in front of us.
In the eyes of those we are saving, we are the Heroes...

BUT in the eyes of those we are fighting with... We are the villains.

LOVE is always the root of WAR.

Because of Love, we fight.
Because of Love, we die.
Because of Love, we survive.

I don't want to question the depth and entity of love per se, but that same love that ignites the flame in your heart is also the same flame that brings smoke into your eyes that makes your way blurry.

For in a battle, there is no right nor wrong, just two opposite sides that both love the people behind them, hence, they fight those who are in front of them.

Most of the time... that love that teaches us to love each other is the same love that teaches us to fight for love. Ironic isn't it?

It is NOT hatred that causes war... but TOO much love.

And lastly...
THE GREATER MAN DEPENDS ON WHICH ANGLE YOU CHOOSE TO LOOK AT.

Work and Coffee

When you finished your work faster than your coffee...

What to do now?...

Blog...

Blog...

Blog!

Starter Song

Starting the decade with this song...

Hey, have you ever tried
Really reaching out for the other side
I may be climbing on rainbows
But baby, here goes

Dreams, they're for those who sleep
Life is for us to keep
And if you're wondering what this song is leading to
I want to make it with you.

Faithful Prayer List 2020

I call it - "Faithful Prayer List" because these are the desires of my heart that I'm asking thru prayers and with my faith and by His Faithfulness it will all be done by His will and grace, Amen.

Most of these are continuation of what has been started from the last decade that I hope I could still fulfill and improve...

1. Continue being a good mother to my daughther.

2. Continue being an inspiration to other people.

3. Continue learning old and new things to gain more wisdom.

4. Get my Master's Degree.

5. Learn the art of controlling my emotions especially the art of controlling my fears.

6. Write more songs.

7. Continue being active in my blog.

8. Read more books.

9. Increase my saving's account.

10. Be brave enough to Love again.

So help me God...

In Jesus name, Amen.

Beautiful Marks

(My Decade 2010-2019)

Ugly scars that turned into beautiful marks...
Painful scratches that turned into strokes of wisdom...

As the decade closes and a new one is budding... I have in my heart an overwhelming gratitude for all the blessings in my life.

This decade was a life changing for me...
And it all happened with a purpose I reckoned after sometime.

Youth was never wasted in me for the mistakes I've  made before gave me wisdom... The wisdom that I fully understood now that I'm older.

My life's imperfection made me love myself more. That is why I always say that line from my favourite song - "🎶And if all the world was perfect I would only ever want to see your scars.🎶"
My scars made me more beautiful because they are the representation of my strength, of my survival, of my resurgence.

Maybe some people would look at me and say that I am so full of myself that there is no space for someone else in my heart.
Believe me, I get that phrase a lot.
But here is the truth about me so full of myself...
I am NOT a narcist NOR conceited.
I only believe that in order to love somebody else you've got to love yourself first.
And loving yourself so much would only tend to overflow that love... And if love is overflowing... You can love others more as well because you can only give something you have in you...
For how can you give if you don't have it.
If you have love for yourself then you could give love to others because you have it in you.

My being a  single mother taught me so much on how to be tough and gentle at the same time.
Believe me, when I broke up with my ex when I was seven-months pregnant back then 7 years ago I was trying my best to be the strongest human being to walk on earth for the sake of my child still inside me. But amidst the strong person that everyone sees in me was a broken woman asking God why it happened to me. I remember crying and asking time after time what have I done wrong? I knew to myself that I am a good woman, I never cheated, not even once, I was always honest and considerate... Believe me I've spent sleepless nights asking why because for goodness sake! Why do bad things happen to good people?
And yes, it took me sometime to finally got the answer for my questions - Why?
And I realized that even though I did nothing wrong in my past relationship, it was meant to end that way because God has plans for me. God intended a mission for me and that is to inspire other women THAT BEING STRONG IS BEAUTIFUL.
I became an advocate in my own way, in my own voice, waving that banner - STRONG IS BEAUTIFUL.
I became an inspiration to other women to choose what is right and stop being weak in the hands of weaker men. I became the woman everyone would ask for advice and everyone would set as an example on how to be strong. And I take pride on that... Not in arrogant way but that kind of pride that I turned my tragedy into a beautiful art... So strong are the hues that everyone gets inspired just by looking at it.
And the same reason why I keep on improving myself because I know that I am not perfect but my imperfections inspires others.
I say that line again - "🎶And if all the world is perfect I would only ever want to see your scars.🎶"
MY SCARS BECAME AN INSPIRATION TO OTHERS AS WELL.

MY SCARS ARE NO LONGER UGLY LINES BUT BEAUTIFUL MARKS.
NO LONGER SCRATCHES OF PAIN BUT STROKES OF WISDOM.

Now, as a new decade opens up for me, I am much more confident that I can jump and fall again... But this time... I won't be crashing my way to the ground... I've learned my way now how to jump and fall and LAND gracefully to my rightful place.
I am much more courageous to go beyond my comfort zones and one by one fulfill my bucketlists.

And more than anything...

I've learn to walk by my Faith more than my instincts...
Because God is faithful in everyway.

So help me God again and again, Amen.

Happy New Year!
Welcome 2020!