possessions

I'm scared I might ran out of tomorrows... but tonight I will sleep like a child knowing that someone stronger than I protects me with a loving arms wrapped around me like a warm blanket. And though it is but a dream, a dream that I will never realize is the same dream that is real.

Thank you for listening to me. Its the first time I've ever told anyone that story. I was always afraid I might die without anyone knowing it and it would be wiped forever from the face of the earth, but now you will keep it for me.

And I no longer fight destiny just to possess you... I finally realized that loving is not owning. We could love the sunsets and the stars for all our lives but we'll never possess it, and not possessing it doesn't mean it was never real, not owning doesn't mean love is not real. Like any other true love, owning it will make you watch it die. Just like a beautiful flower that you long to possess, you pick it, its in your hand, you own it... but soon it will die in your arms and will leave you empty and sad. But if you let that flower be in the fields where it belong, never dare to possess it in your hands, you will watch that flower bloom and multiply and will never die.
Loving is not owning, knowing that great love is the love that makes two people move on with their lives but continues to love each other in spite the distance, in spite the constant parallelism of their fate. That love that even though how many times you fall in love with different people, you never fell out of love with each other. That love that never owns but keeps on loving.

who are we to judge?

Who are we to judge? - that is what I always say whenever I hear people talk about Judas, Hitler, and even the Devil himself. Sometimes I would even find myself defending them. Not that I support their diabolic ways but I always believe that there is still goodness inside them, or should I say I have faith in them, that in spite of their evilness there is a greater GOOD reason why they become who they are right now. Most of the time I think about it and convince myself that those great villains in world history become the person they became because of one great love. That one great love that will make you take all the risks even becoming the great evil just for that one great love. And I believe that even though the world looks at them with disgust, I, in the most sincerest reason, salute them because they are the most courageous men lived. They never cared what the world would think about them as long as what they do is what they think is for love. For some they call it selfishness but think again... who wants to become bad? Nobody. Nobody wants to become evil, but those courageous men embraced it, sacrificed their selves for love. I call it sacrifice because they never thought about their reputation, their lives. And to add more heroism, its not only a lifetime of sacrifice but an eternity of misery. But they've learned to embrace it. They are the greatest martyrs. And blessed are the martyrs for neither pain nor misery can hurt them. They are the strongest. For some they call it numbness but real strength comes within the soul that becomes numb from torture.

All for love. And God is love. So even the Devil sacrificed for God, for love.

So who are we to judge? We who are so weak and cannot stand for the ones we love. We who are so selfish that cannot sacrifice our reputation for love. We who are so scared to face an eternity of misery for love.
Who are we to judge?
We are much more evil than the Devil. We are full of pride thinking that we are much better than them but we are nothing compared to them.
Who are we to judge

bread and rock

Pag binato ka ng bato, huwag mong batuhin ng tinapay, kainin mo yung tinapay kase sayang naman kung hindi nya sasaluhin at babagsak lang sa lupa.

coffee and bitterness

Ang bitterness nilalasahan at hindi dinadamdam. Dapat diretso s tiyan at hindi sa puso.



Minsan kasi pag may pinagdadaanan, imbes na bilisan ang lakad para makapag move on agad, eh lalo pang binabagalan ang lakad... minsan may stop over pa tapos magrereklamo. Walang ibang makakatulong sayo kundi sarili mo.