Saturday, November 25, 2006

Ms. John Tucker

Well perhaps it is true that once a habit will always be a habit, that a born John Tucker will always be a John Tucker – if you know what I mean. Perhaps people will always be the same, the same old fools that could easily be fooled and will always have a piece of dirty clay within them. I could hardly imagine a better change for humans than the way I could picture a cow jumping over the moon.


I’m nothing against her… this is just the truth, though.


She is the kind of a lady every girl wished to become. No one could actually hate her except for the bitter ache that the venom of envy could do. Insecurity is the only reason to hate her. Every guy would take a second look on her once she passes by. I hope you get the picture. She is just simply perfect!


She is like nectar that attracts all the bees. But sad to say, I am NOT a bee. I know from the start even before she became a friend of mine (we are still friends, though) that her nectar is a sweet poison that could sting anyone who dares to sip. I knew it. As what I’ve said before – I can see the black out of whites, the white out of blacks and the gray in between.


Vanity of vanities, all is vanity! But what is vanity? I would definitely be one on the lead protesting about the world’s greatest lie – the meaning of vanity.


O! Beauty that a Mac can make… they call it vanity, but it isn’t. I would definitely say that those ladies who wear their make-ups everyday and dress in a very fashionable way are the truest essence of “HONESTY”. I mean “HONESTY” – because they do NOT pretend to be simple knowing that being simple is the hardest thing we could ever become. It is true, though. They know to their selves that they are imperfect and they admit that they need all those stuffs for confidence sake. It isn’t vanity but rather honesty to wear the colors of Mac. I appreciate those ladies who wear the truest essence of being humble – of letting other people know how imperfect they are without these colorful masks.


On the other hand, hypocrites, I would say, could be so deceiving. They would go out without a tinge of red patch on their faces, no trace or sketch of make-ups… whoa! How simple – right?! But ladies are masters of crafts that could bewitch men. Ladies know that simplicity could turn a man around and say – “O! She is definitely a “woman-to-marry” type of a lady.” But behind that hypocritical simplicity lies a lurking filthy flirtatious character that wants all the bees to sip into her nectar and eventually die for her stinging spell. I would say that those ladies who try to be simple are hypocrites to the bone – they are the certified flirts who know exactly all the strategies on how to throw a curve ball right between the eyes of men.


Now, who wears the mask of vanity? Who is the liar?


I pity those men who fell from the stingy curse of her charm. But more than my pity for those men, I pity her more because her attitude is a poison within her being. It is like a lurking guilt but she seems to be too numb to be convicted by her conscience.


“O! Vanity of vanities… all is vanity!”


I pray for the pride beneath the beauty so amazing to behold but too bitter to taste.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Shower Of Blessings

This year is actually jam-packed with so many events that dramatically changed my life. It is just worthy to give thanks to the Big Man. And though there were also disappointments I went through this year, I look at the road beyond the bend.


Many are those granted desires which are now long been forgotten by my frame of mind but the gratitude still lives within. So I’ll just wrap it up with my top 10 list of most memorable events this year, though there are still so much more than I could actually think and remember.


10.) The new life in our family – my cuddly baby nephew was born last June and it just turns me on of being called “aunt” since it sounds like “old”, I mean being “old” cause it just turns me on to think of being old since I was always the baby since I knew I exists. But I’m still a baby brat until now, though! =)


9.) Good friends, old friends, long lost friends, and new friends – I’ve gained a lot of new friends this year and I’m thankful for that. But greater is my gratitude for my good old friends and those long lost friends I’ve lost my contacts with but eventually fate brought them back. I’m glad they stayed and I know they will forever be.


8.) The local publication – it was actually a half-dream come true because after my thorough struggle with my lack of confidence regarding my articles and compositions, I was able to take one bold step and finally was able to gain enough courage to pass it to our local publication and was able to get published. Thanks for the space provided for my stuffs.


7.) The yearbook – I took for granted my review sessions before just to rush the legacy of our batch – our yearbook. Though everybody seemed to be against us (me and my co-editors) and they were giving us a hard time processing the edition, we made it through the deadline, though. What can I say… we are a bunch of good, creative and talented editors (hahaha!!!). I’m glad we broke the record of being the fastest working committee our school has ever had. And the outcome was undeniably amazing to behold.


6.) On the spotlight – I was able to stand and talk in front of a crowd looking strangely before me. Though stage-fright is NOT really a part of my system (hahaha!!!) since I was a former member of Theatre Guild and “stage-confidence” is actually a sort of my "talent” – hahaha!!! It is still a wonderful feeling to have another chance to be on the spotlight once again after a long break.


5.) Revalida – I passed our revalida “out-rightly”. Nicanorian-Tamaraws know what I mean.


4.) Graduation – finally, I am an alumna of FEU-NRMF Institute of Medicine.


3.) Registered Medical Technologist – I passed the Medical Technology board examinations with only a little effort from me and mostly by the faithfulness, power, love and grace of God – To Him be the glory!


2.) Job well done! – I was able to find a “somehow” good job even before our oath taking. I’m hoping and praying for my “regularity”, though.


1.) I’m thankful for the most incredible journey anyone could ever wish or dreamth of – my life. I’m thankful for the chance to witness the beauty of the day and the stillness of the night. The morning sunrise that is so breath-taking and the evening sunset that is so amazing to behold. The serenity of the moon while the stars dance at night and the music of the pouring rain that goes well with the cold crisp breeze of the wind sweetly caressing the skin.

I’m thankful I’m in good vibe with God.
I’m thankful because I have a wonderful loving God.

Yes, though my need is great, my gratitude is greater.


Belated Happy Thanksgiving Day!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Dare To Be Daniel

I’m feeling awful this time because someone else’s life was ruined because of my terrible visions. Though it wasn’t exactly my fault for the mere fact that I did not do anything bad towards that man, I still feel a bit guilty for having such terrible visions for almost quite sometime, and later did I’ve come to know that his father was confined in the hospital… and that was exactly what I visualized even before it actually happened.


I’m feeling guilty, though, for the mere fact that it was my own volition to actually create that vision in my frame of mind not anticipating that it will actually come true. My visions of his father and the like was so vivid and I feel so guilty for even letting my mind fed me up with such animated castles in the air that eventually turned into vivid reality. I feel guilty for even letting that sink into my mind in the first place.


No! – I’m not saying that I have some kind of supernatural powers or third or fourth eye or something similar with the like. It is just that most of the time I dream or visualize something or even people stranger to me, and later will I come to encounter them and learn that what I’ve seen in my mind actually happened. It is eerie, though.


Of course it frightens me sometimes. It is uncanny not to. But as what Spiderman said – “This is my gift and the same is my curse”.


I pray everything will be alright, though.


Have a blessed week ahead!

Ciao!!!

Friday, November 10, 2006

The Great Vanity

Maybe it really is just too good to be true.
Maybe it is just a mere state of blinding hue.
I'm done with all those euphoric illusions.
Darn emotions waving poignant visions.
I'm done with all those castles in the air.
Bitter potion blend with perfume fair.
Ice cream cones made of cold tasteless ice.
Freezing death is the prize.
O! life... what would death be if thou without?
Vanity maybe it is all about.