Star Wars III:Revenge Of The Sith (Some Thoughts You Should Think About)

Star Wars III:Revenge Of The Sith
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A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...
(May you feel the force as you read along the way!)

YODA: "Learn to let go of the things you fear to lose."
*** The simple advice of Yoda to Anakin and the lesson Yoda gave to me. Letting go of the things you fear to lose?!!...just tell me how could that be when just the thought of losing it makes you shiver with fear and pain?! I understand Anakin, maybe because there's the Anakin side of me too, the side of me that never wanted to let go and don't even want to think about it. But it is the art of tragedy that makes us the person we wanted to be but never thought we could be,... and the same twist of fate is the art of tragedy that can also make us the person we don't want to be and never thought we could be. Who would have thought that Anakin would choose to be Darth Vader rather than the chosen one of the Jedi to save the Galactic Republic? No one dare to think about that the hero from the start of the history would turn to be the great villain at the end of the story.And the matter of fact is that the fact of the matter is the heart.

PADME' AMIDALA: "Love has blinded you?!"
*** So there it was, the sweet conversation of Anakin Skywalker and his secret wife Padme' Amidala...

ANAKIN: "... you're so beautiful!"
PADME' AMIDALA: "Its just because I'm so in love!..."
ANAKIN: "... no! because I'm so in love with you!..."
PADME' AMIDALA: "So love has blinded you?!!"
*** So love is NOT blind... but it can blind you!...blind until its too late to see that you're already at the dark side and can't see light. The love that was once was your light has now blinded you and its just not logically, emotionally, humanly behavior to go back when you have gone too far to return.

OBI-WAN KENOBI: "You are the chosen one... the one who should bring back peace... and not to become the lord of the Sith!"
*** So, the heart of the matter is that, the CHOSEN ONE can CHOOSE! Now we can differentiate the two different heroes of two different stories - the Bible's Jesus and the Star Wars' Anakin. Jesus was the Messiah and so was Anakin. Both were called the "CHOSEN ONE", but while Jesus choose to fulfill the prophecy that He really is the chosen one, Anakin did not mind the prophecy and decided to be at the dark side of the force and be the lord of the Sith - (No wonder Jesus said "Think not that I am come to destroy the law or the prophets:I am not come to destroy, but to fulfill." Matt. 5:17)... Anakin did not mention that because he destroyed the prophecy that he is the chosen one by taking the wrong step of turning his back from the Jedi rule.
Could you imagine how different the Bible story would be if from the time Jesus, during His agony in the garden of Gethsemane, when Satan was tempting Him and He gave in? Whew! never thought of that not until now - right?! Imagine what could have happened if Jesus was blindly in love with as beautiful as Padme' Amidala during His earthly time and Satan tempt Him be the lord of hell just to save His wife from giving birth! What a different story it would be! (Maybe that's the purpose behind Jesus' solitary life! - right?!)
Well, I'm glad Jesus did not chose to be overcomed by His "Anakin side" during His earthly time and still decided to resist temptation to fulfill the prophecy that He is the "CHOSEN ONE".
Going back to Anakin Skywalker, he disappointed Obi-Wan Kenobi and me! Just as the dark side of the force disappointed him too because just when he thought he could save Padme' from dying, it turned out that Padme' did not die because of giving birth but because she loses the will to live. After all, Padme's life was Anakin, and losing Anakin is the same as death for her, and Anakin died the time Darth Vader was born out of him. So who killed Padme'?... well according to the wicked chancellor, Anakin's anger killed Padme'. So sad that from the start all he wanted was to save Padme' and he end up killing Padme'.
*** So maybe the cliche' is true, that "Evil is something that can only be done out of courage!" - the courage to turn your back from the truth you once knew and be ready to be blinded with deceitful pleasures from your humanly natured heart.
*** Lastly, a friendly advice... "The devil is evil and will always be evil and he will disappoint you just as he disappointed everybody!"... so be safe and guard your heart because it is where he usually attacks with his deceitful agendas!...xoxox

"MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!"

CRIME

CRIME
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What a debateful philosophy,
Killing one's psychology,
In a world full of mystery,
Hellbound full of misery.

Love is a right,
According to the one who writes,
This book of love we used to know,
The hell with the one who doesn't know!

She's a fair and beautiful unpopular girl,
She wears her hair in a wavy curl,
Fell in love with a highschool superstar lad,
Stupid cupid really hurt her bad.

I told her once - " highschool superstars?!
...trust me, no one will care about them after 5 years of hours."
But then she just smiled at me,
Stupid shit! - don't you believe me?!

A week after, there's a putrid decaying smell near the soccer court,
They've found a dead body - it's the highschool superstar - his name is Kurt,
There's a message beside his body tinted with his blood,
"If you can't fall on me, then no one else can have you cute lad!"

Then I remember her living in a world of philosophy,
That freedom is an act and not just an idea out of psychology,
Just then I realized that its about time,
I could finally say to myself that freedom is a crime!

Time : Speaks

Time : Speaks
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Time now speaks,
I miss the feelings I once had in you, But I don't miss you,
I miss the way you motivate me,
Now I realize that you're really the lost I can't replace...
...well, I did not lost you
...cause I never had you.
Finally time speaks,
That even though I'll find something new,
A part of me will always be with you,
I know that's one part of me that I can't get back,
One thing that is irreplaceable.
"I miss you though I never knew you"
...that's what I always say to you,
But then time speaks,
I never knew you but I know in my heart that I've loved you.
Love... time will tell me if I'm still in love with you.
Time suddenly speaks,
I've learned so much from the time I've learned to love you,
And the time I run away from you...
The lesson within you even after I go...
Even after you go...
The lesson that will be treasured in my heart,
For the hopes of someday my dreams won't broke apart.
You're not one in a million,
Cause you're the only one I knew that is like you,
You're only one... in this whole wide world,
No one before,
No one in this splendid time,
No one to come who is like you.
I'm not hoping that someday we'll meet and you'll have the chance to read all the songs I wrote for you
...I'm not wishing either for that time to come.
I'm happy just to feel your touch in my life,
Its a touch with a feeling,
A touch in my soul and not just merely on my skin.
Time speaks again,
I hope you're happy,
Having fun, learning, and exploring the world with love in your heart.
I hope your cherished dreams will unfold into reality,
I pray for your success and happiness.
...I'll see you in my dreams,
If I will sleep... if I can sleep tonight... if you'll be there in my dreams tonight.
Love... time will tell...
Time will speak...
...somehow it will speak again to me...

Magnum Opus

Truly better than perfect
Hypervenusimia - such a creation
Such rare beauty without defect
Molded inside the slaughtered mansion.
With golden halo surrounded by horns
An angel with dirty feet
On that deep dark night she was born
from a golden palace underneath.
Could it be a wild angel in a savage heaven
Like a perfume with a putrid scent
Could it be a monster walking like a fair maiden
In a paradise of a gloomy garden.
Surrender for her beauty, kneel for her charm
Bow to her and kiss her feet and arms
No!... be courageous and oppose
For she is hell's magnum opus.

Playing Safe

What's your greatest fear?... have you been there?... What if you woke up one morning and found yourself trapped in a tortured scenery of your greatest fear?
" I'm a very optimistic person, I hopeth even though I'm hopeless, I believe even though the truth is not quite true, and I always endure every simple things in life" - that's one secret in me that I didn't know not until I've been there in my greatest fear.
I have my greatest fear - everybody does! and I've been there. At first I thought I was only dreaming but then I realize ... No!!!... its real!... and yes!!!... reality bites. At first I can't believe that I'm in it, cause I always believed that God won't take me there cause He knows that that is my greatest fear, but then one fine morning which I thought would just pass me by, I woke up and found myself trapped in a tortured scenery of my greatest fear... I can't think of anything, I had mixed emotions of sadness, madness, anguish, fury, and fear and I can't help but cry.
Yes! at first I blamed God, I locked myself inside my room and cried the whole day wishing that God would be sensitive enough to see me crying. But - " My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, where is thy God?" (Psalm 42:3). Do you know the feeling of striving so much and end up being a loser? That's what I've felt! But my faith in Him (God) gives me (as always) the courage to dare even though I don't really have the guts.
Facing my greatest fear in life made me realize that at the very moment of that fearsome scene, even though I was really mad, I was still able to worship and give thanks to God... but its not that easy. But the point there is - "why would you cease to pray when you need it badly? As Job said " As God liveth who hath taken away my judgement; And the Almighty, who hath vexed my soul; All the while my breath is in me, and the Spirit of God is in my nostrils; My lips shall not speak wickedness nor my tongue utter deceit." ( Job 27:2-4 )
It is the art of saying "thank you!" for the "bitter life" cause far beyond what we see lies something great that only God can see... is that not wonderful?... is that not something we should appreiciate in advance?... that just when you thought it was a dead end, God whisphers :"relax! its only a bend"... that even though we feel all alone we are not really forsaken?
Another thing that I'm thankful for is that, God didn't let go of me. Someone asked me what keeps me holding on to God and I answered - " I'm not holding Him but He holds me!"... yes! true enough! cause if I'm the one holding Him - for sure I've already lose my grip. But He is the one holding me, that's why I'm always secure.
I believe that if you're with God you're playing safe in every game in life. You'll know when to say " its ok to fail" and when to say " I should win", you'll know when to hold on and when to let go, to say "yes" and to say "no", to stop and to continue, to listen and to speak, to learn and to share wnat you know, to give and to receive, to laugh and to cry, to trust and to forgive, to get in and to get out, to appreciate and to criticize in a good way, to fear and to be brave, to fight and to walk away, to work and to play, to be strong and when to be weak, and when to be safe and when to take the risk. Cause God's wisdom is far beyond all what the universe can sustain .

" If you made a right decision, its not because you're wise, but its because God enlightened you."
"Never think that you're good enough unless you're with God."
"Playing safe means playing the game of life with God at your side."
--- Be Safe! Le'gra go Deo!---

PEANUT BUTTER JELLY

My mouth is full of peanut butter jelly

Sweet on my tongue but bitter in my belly

Lusting for ambition, cadging for mercy

Taste again that bitter - sweet dream like candy.

Her belly is in full moon

Long awaited life she'll see soon

Trapped in a bounded urban called "Doom"

Somewhere out there someone might appeal to her boon.

Milk on her lips suddenly turned red

Looking to the moon, asking to be fed

You can always look back but can never go back

Once you've moved on you lay your hands on luck.

I met her at the corner of that coffee shop

She's selling candied flesh and sugared soul

I stand in front of her as I get my last two pennies and dropped

Hindering my inert emotions that seems uncontrolled.

"Who owns that moon in your belly?"... I asked

"Does he know about his responsibility - is he ready for his task,

The world seemed to be full of fury

Not suited for such like you with a rare beauty."

Be brave, gain your self enough courage

You've seen too much though you're still at your tender age

Its ok, its just peanut butter jelly

Sweet on tongue, bitter in belly.

The Last Dance

Beneath the moon so blue

Colors changing velvet hue

It takes two to tango

Its midnight but you can't go.

We'll dance different waltz

Cause tango isn't the only dance

Tonight will be your last chance

To gaze the stars and hear the wind chimes.

Welcome to the ballroom for two

Once you've entered you can't go

Glittering shadows of souls are hidding

Waiting for the right moment of slaughtering.

Then the door suddenly closed

Different mystic music is everywhere

The world inside suddenly posed

Then mocked voices suddenly blared.

I touched your lips and you feel bliss

Mysterious scenes are kept within

Barenaked - liquids are released

Just for a night you're beyond myriad sins.

With soulful caress and bodies wet

Adulterous scenery is where we've met

Your innocence loves my diabolic passion

You and me inside this erotic illusions.

Ghostly perfume floating on air

You breath only my name so fair

Suddenly you're FATAL, turning white - BLOODLESS!

But your mind is still dancing with madness.

I'm your sweet poison

As I do my last ritual version

As the dark tortured scenery turns into BLOODY - ness

As I drink your crimson blood with gladness.

Sweet Sadness

Vicissitude... if only you were not you

When your soul is in blue velvet hue

Trying to change for somebody new

You've changed but you've just made your self a foe.

Weird... I remember something that did not happened

A thing or two that should have happened

Too coward to do it with my own bare hands

I can't take it back, I've gone too far from the end.

Fly on a cake... like apple pies with worms inside

Foul smelling - decayed from behind and side to side

A million dollar for a cup of sour milk and old bread crumbs

In a tortured scenery you feel so numd.

Smile... its heaven in a hell

A friend in foe's cradle

Courage... it's glorious madness

In a teardrop of sweet sadness.

Green Forest... Blue Sea... In A Different World

I've found myself in adifferent world of living,

Sinful are the creatures but they're half human, half divine,

Illusions of a child, in his eyes reflect - he is crying,

Love, lies, and sacrifice are all yours and mine.

I walked all alone in the meadows hue,

Greener than it seems but for me its blue,

Then in that forest stood one big unknown tree,

I stare at it, focused at it, my mind was no longer free,

Then suddenly I realized - my mind is a mess!

This is not the only tree, I'm in a forest.

I look at life like that tree in the forest,

I wonder how to pick up all the mess,

My eyes only concentrates in one aspect of my life before,

Not knowing that there are millions of aspects and more.

Then suddenly there's a scene of a blue sea,

Placid as it may seem but cruel and violent - it bothers me,

There's this little well on the shore,

Curious I was, I'm sure that I'm not sure,

I get a pail and I've tried so many times

To transfer all the sea water to that well so fine,

Then I sigh and said - "Well is so little for you Mr. Sea,

The water I put in it goes back to thee!"

I look at heaven and earth's knowledge like that blue sea,

And the little poor well on the shore is me,

I'm trying to accumulate all the water of the sea/of the ocean,

But then I realized i'm just a part of the ocean,

Everything I have goes back to that ocean,

I'm just trying to get a piece of my desired emotion,

I'm trying to accumulate all the knowledge of the world,

But I couldn't and will never understand all the knowledge of the world.

I'm afraid I might loose my all,

I'm afraid I've got nothing to lose anymore,

In this different world everything needs to fall,

But still everybody craves for more.

Some say being different is a sin,

Some say that if you're different you'll never win,

Though I'm an ant in a world of elephants,

I'm going to find my place under the sun.