When I was a kid, my father used to tell me stories about legendary great people, both good and bad. I guess my father knew that even bad people has a place on earth because they could be used as a good example on how to live your life.
According to my father, Hitler's army was great, well-trained and complete with ammunition. But the secret poison that led Hitler and his army to their fall was the same poison everybody has. This poison has everything in it. It keeps all the deepest secrets and even the most filthy secrets on earth. All great people who had lived has this poison and many had fallen. Some few who survived from this poison were wise enough to realize that this very poison is also the antidote.
It is the human heart.
The fall of Hitler and his army began in their hearts. Hitler's heart started to poison him. He became proud of what he has and became too confident... or a better word – arrogant in his battles. This confidence made him under-estimate his opponents. On the other hand, his opponents, because they were so scared of him did not rest until perfection became their target on the day of the battle field. Hence, the weak and the coward developed the perfect techniques to stab the giants (brave and strong) at their backs and lead them to their fall.
This is the lesson Hitler gave to my father and so he passed it on to me.
I have survived a lot of battles in life because I always remember this story. But the poison will always be inside of me (inside of everybody), and oftentimes it attacks when you are not aware of it.
One fine day it attacked me and I didn't realized it was the poison. It spread so quickly through my veins and it was a bit too late when I found out that I was poisoned.
It took me 3 years to finally realized how massive it is already. Now, though I still have the time, I'm having a hard time reversing the cycle to turn the poison to antidote. It is hard but I'm trying.
Extra effort wasn't enough, though...
and I thought... and am convinced that God is the only one that could heal me.