Leap for March

Celebrating the leap of my Faith

On this leap day of February

With a toast of tea and honey

For the home I'm starting to create.

Keen Universe

...maybe that is why we are

sometimes doomed. 😬

Chance Taken

Home is where the heart is...

But it would be much better to have a safe haven and call it a home.

So finally I took the chance...

Got my contract signed today.

Another X from my bucketlist.

So help me God.

Amen.

Defying Time

While off to somewhere...

This caught my eye and...

I can't help myself but to capture the moment.

Defying Red Flags

We always ask for signs...

Without realizing that...

Red flags are also signs.

And in the midst of it all...

Could your Faith defy all the signs?

Could your Faith see beyond the red and blue flags?

Could your Faith defy fate...

To turn the tables of destiny.

Sorry to contradict your sermon Pastor...
But I have to say this one out loud...

PUT YOUR FAITH IN GOD...
NOT IN YOUR RELIGION.

Talking To Myself

So I said to myself in the midst of my impulsiveness...

"Be Cool!... But don't Freeze." - 😊dessa Mann

SAFE PLACE

I will take the risk
With you
Cause I know that
You are my safe place.
A hundred times I jumped and fell
But I ended up
In uncomfortable places.
Now I am crossing lines and boarders
Cause I know you are my safe place.
I'm breaking my grey walls down
Defying the odds...
I'm in danger...
But I know you are my safe place.
I'm ready
With my backpack...
My way home...
To my safe place.

Strings Attached

And there it goes...

Sudden rush of memories...

Our untold stories...

The private jokes and punch lines...

My sentences you've ended...

Yours that I made mine.

And so it is...

Suddenly curving my mouth...

Stretching the edges...

To meet mine ears...

Echoes in my heart getting loud...

Strings attached so dear.

No regrets 

With a few exceptions 

Every wrong turn 

Was the right direction 

Learning to love 

All the imperfections 

That are still a part of me 

Still a part of me ...

Never Broken

As a kid, Professor X aka Charles Xavier has always been my favourite X-Men character, yes, in spite the fact that he is physically weak...

I've always admired his wisdom and control.

In fact, I believe I have fallen in love a hundred times with his beautiful and strong mind.

I admire men with beautiful minds more than beautiful faces.

And I like it how he told Jean that he cannot fix her... Because she was never broken.

*****

Maybe we all are not broken...

Maybe we just thought we are because we break things.

Maybe I don't need a fixing...

Maybe I just needed time.

And maybe...

I was Never really broken. ❤️

Embers Of Hope

Not because I feel so uninspired means I can no longer inspire others.

That is why I wear my artificial light.

I have to inspire those people who listens to me, those who believes in me, those people who seeks inspiration in me.

Because reality bites...

Reality chews...

Reality swallows...

Reality digests...

And we all come out as shit.

And No one comes out alive...

But I choose to live while I can and Not just exist.

Reality bites...

And we sometimes get blown away.

We lose that light inside us...

We can't seem to shine...

But I choose to lit my own fire...

Creating little sparks from the embers of hope...

Creating embraces of warmth from the ashes of my faith...

Create a burning flame from the dust of Love

Changing History

Thoughts on my way to work...

I've realized that history repeats itself... 

For some because they did not learn from it...

For others because it is a test if they can apply what they've learned from it...

And for the few... If they can Change it.

I wasn't suppose to make the same mistakes as my friends did...

I am destined to change the course of the plan...

And I am willing... 

But I'm scared.

The Art To Capture

So I captioned it with my own words...

1.) When your inner light dims out...

And you can't shine from within...

Create your own spark...

Wear your Artificial Light.

2.) Learn the Art to Capture a Moment Thru a Lens...

Cause some good things never last...

And memories are the only ones we can keep.

 3.) Anyone could be the master of their own ships...

But You can be a lighthouse who guides the Masters.

 4.) You can be beautiful and tough all at the same time...

Be graceful in your battles...

Let your enemies underestimate you so they won't expect your big blow.

5.) You can stare at the boarder all you want...

Or you can experience what is beyond.

After Forever

So what happens after forever?

Cause I found myself still looking for you.

In every random crowd,

In every familiar eyes,

In every strangers' smiles.

So what happens after forever?

Cause I found myself looking for you eyes,

Searching for your smile...

In every random crowd.

What comes after forever?

Cause I found myself...

Beyond time...

Beyond space...

Beyond emotions...

Beyond life...

Beyond forever.

ARTIFICIAL LIGHT

And there is this light inside of her

That shines from within.

So she doesn't need a spotlight,

She glows... She beams.

And when her light refused to shine,

And everything is dim as night.

There she is... still sublime

She lits up her artificial light.

Long Way Home

Today I let go of my confusion into the cynical world...

And yes...

I've taken a little drink of madness

And so I finally gained that courage.

And I finally stepped across the line.

This is one of my fears...

Maybe not actually my greatest fear...

But still, I fear it.

And though I have found the courage to control this fear...

I'm still scared.

But yes...

Control.

I'm controlling my fear so it won't control me.

So that it cannot manipulate me.

And I believe that controlling one's fear is one notch higher to overcoming it.

It is actually the Mastery of it.

And yes...

There are still a lot of things I'm scared of...

But atleast I am able to throw this one off my Fear's Bucket List.

And I didn't ask God for a sign...

I just asked for His guidance.

And I know He will be faithful guiding me throughout this journey...

Because 25 years is a long long way to go and much harder to go through if God is not on my side.

 So help me God, Amen.

In The Company Of Strangers

In the company of strangers...

You have to learn how to get along...

Because it is the only way to survive.

Uncomfortable Zone

I'm starting to feel Uncomfortable...

In this Zone.

Leave, Lost, and Find

Because you can Never Find Happiness in the Same Place Where you've Lost it.

Half Life

I guess I'll let you know
When I figure it out.
But I don't mind a few mysteries,
They can stay that way it's fine by me,
And you are another mystery I am missing.
It takes so much out of me to pretend.
Maybe, I need to see the daylight
To leave behind the half-life.

(by: Duncan Sheik)

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#12 Home Finally

We often ask for signs

We look up to the sky and ask for a shooting star, 

We toss a coin only to wish for the side in favor to our desire,

We ask for a white dove to knock on our windows,

We ask for a stranger in a yellow shirt to bump us as we go to work...

Yes... We always ask for signs.

But we ask for signs NOT because we do not know what to do...

NOT because we do not know which one to choose.

In fact... 

We know exactly what to do,

We know exactly what to choose,

We know exactly what we want.

Truth is...

We ask for signs because we are Scared.

We ask for signs so that our trembling hearts would tame as we finally jump over our decisions.

We ask for signs because we need to find courage so that our hearts and mind would collide into one.

We ask for signs because we need to be comforted by our ownselves in the midst of fear.

We ask for signs because we know what to do but we are scared to do it.

***

So today...

I didn't ask for a sign...

I just asked for guidance as I finally jump into my final decision...

Cause 25 years is a long way to go...

And I have to start now.

I have to start now because there are just so many tomorrows and the morrow is never a promise.

I asked not for a sign but for guidance of the one Faithful.

Eraser

70/23

"When your legs don't work 

like they used to before

And I can't sweep you off of your feet

Will your mouth still remember 

the taste of my love

Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks

And darling I will be loving you 'til we're 70

And baby my heart 

could still fall as hard at 23..." 

This has always been my favourite song by Ed Sheeran...

It reminds me of one of the greatest love story I've ever seen in my life...

The Love Story of  my mom and dad.

Their story is the reason why I still believe in fairytales.
The reason why I never lose my faith in love in spite of everything that happened...
In spite of all the mistakes made...
In spite of all the regrets and pain...

There is a reason to smile back. 🐵

Hard

When things get uncontrolled and my emotions start to rush over my head...

It makes me wanna get a new tattoo. 🙈

Cause I love the pain...
The breeding ground for hate.

***
I hate obsessing over something or someone.
Obsession makes me feel weak.
Obsession makes me feel like a fool...
And I hate it.
I've got the highest pride when it comes to wisdom.
So I hate it when I feel like I'm a fool obsessing over something or someone.

So whenever it happens...

I cut them out of my life .

Sometimes it's easy,
Sometimes it's hard.

Today...
I find it really Hard. 🙊

Puzzle

You are my favourite memory
As I lay in here
Doing nothing
But procrastinating
Imagining
Different versions of love
The should and could have beens
All in the lane of my lucid dreams.

And if I could rerun it all over
I would take that risk to cross the river
Step on the line
Make You really mine
Curve all the straight lines
To meet your point into mine.

But everything is falling apart
There are debris everywhere
And every piece will land into their rightful places
As I find every missing piece of my puzzles.

Virtue

I believe you arrived too late...

I am much stronger and wiser now than just settle on what is available at this moment when I can actually pursue and get what I really want.

When maturity hits you...

You will no longer settle for less.

You'll be willing to wait and to take the risk when the right moment comes and to hold with real strength what you really desire.

Just saying, though. 😁

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#11 Makes Me Smile Back

When life gets boring

And everything becomes a routine,

It's that random faces'

That random strangers'

Smiles...

That makes me smile back.

It's that soft breeze

That unknown chills

That makes me smile back.

It's the bird that sings

That leaves falling

That makes me smile back.

It's the pavement going to places

That edifice standing in cases

That makes me smile back.

It's that sudden rush of memories

That almost forgotten stories

That makes me smile back.

It's that constellation

That tiny stars and the Orion

That makes me smile back.

Believe me...

There will always be a reason to smile back...
Learn how to fall in love..

With life.

Tots

While on the road going to work...
This is what I realized -

The thin line between truth and lies is called Denial.

*** CTTO            

Continuum

So as long as there is one person who believes...

Then YOU should continue.

And if that one person is Yourself...

Then YOU MUST continue.

The Year of the Libra

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#10  Heal

And so I'd rather be scared

For the rest of my life

If You will hold my hand

And face my demons with me.

That's the only time

That I feel brave enough

When you stand beside me

And hold me...

I become invincible.

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#9 Scared Still

I only hold you when I'm scared,

And still you wonder why

I'm still holding on...

To You.

It's because I'm still scared.

And I will never lose this fear.

Maybe I don't want to be brave...

Because I don't want to let You go.

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#8 Distant

I want to love you

With all my heart,

But I'm all tied up

With this twisted circumstance.

And I can't break out,

I can never be free.

So I have to hide

All the love I have

Cause it is too much

For you to bear.

Till then I will love you

From the distance,

Till all the stars align

For you and me to entwine.

Priceless

So this is what I've got this Friday the 14th...

And it's priceless. ❤️❤️❤️

JumpEr

I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand... - (3rd 👁️🙈)

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#7  Cracked But Not Broken

We're not broken,

We're just a little bit cracked.

We cannot start over again,

But we can continue with this track.

A misdiagnosed

Beyond parallel universe.

We keep just to lose.

We hold on beyond curse.

And all these theories

And behind all the conspiracies,

There we are coming out in mysteries.

In the series of our stories.

The Art of Living

Penne Pesto cravings satisfied!

For the love of coffee and pesto. ❤️

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken;

Your best friend always sticking up for you

Even when I know you're wrong.

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance,

Five-hour phone conversation,

The best soy latte that you ever had, and me

Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man 

who is too afraid to fly so he never did land...

And so I was seethe by my own kettle.

Love your work...

and it will Love you back.

So who needs a boyfriend if companies give chocolates on Valentine's?... 😋

Isang Dosenang Tula Para Sa'yo

#6 The Dragon With Butterfly's Wings

I only hold your hand when I'm scared.

Til you decided to prioritize yourself.

Now I'm lost,

I can't find my way back to you.

But surprisingly...

I'm no longer looking for traces of your footprints.

I'm making my own home

Without you.

Like a healing wound...

Layer by layer I'm shredding off the skin.

I'll learn to face my fears all by myself.

I'll make you proud.

I'll let you see my wings.

Til we meet again...

I'll be smiling while running towards you.

And I will embrace you with these wings you asked me to use.

I painted them green and blue.

Just as you wanted those ocean's and sky's hue.

I've become your dragon with butterfly's wings.

Strength and beauty from within.

Look what I've become because of You.

Even the most beautiful Love song cannot make you smile if your heart is angry.

Beautiful Mind

So my heart is stuck inside a bottle 

Because I only fall for a beautiful mind

Til someone comes along

To open it up with his purest intention

A pure soul and a heart that is kind.

Reflecting it all inside a beautiful mind.

When life gets blurry...

Adjust your focus.

Simple

There's a lot of things to be thankful for everyday like your career, your job, your family, your friends and loved ones...

But we should also be thankful for the simple things that makes us smile...

As for me...

I am thankful for the beautiful sunrise...

And for my cup of coffee. 🤗☕🌄

Always wear that smile...

Cause it's perfect on your face.

Pursuing Happiness

I will always see the beauty of life...

I will never get tired of capturing sunsets everyday...

Yes, with or without you.

(p.s. : I'm not really pertaining to anyone specific... It's just exactly how I feel being alone and happy.)

Been there...

Done that...

And it's fulfilling.

When people know your weakness...

They just hand you your coffee...

For free...

Great morning!

Like Your Prayers

If you could only know me like your prayers at night

Then everything between you and me will be alright.

OURS IS STRONGER THAN LOVE

OUR STORY IS ONE OF THE RAREST...

Because our FRIENDSHIP is so STRONG that even LOVE cannot break it.

Morning Tunes

It felt like spring time on this February morning

In a courtyard birds were singing your praise

I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright

I carried them with me today

Now

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

I wonder why I feel so high

Though i am not above the sorrow

Heavy hearted

Till you call my name

And it sounds like church bells

Or the whistle of a train

On a summer evening

I'll run to meet you

Barefoot, barely breathing

It's not too near for me

Like a flower I need the rain

Though it's not clear to me

Every season has it's change

And I will see you

When the sun comes out again

Pride Chicken

Forgive me if I don't want to eat my Pride...

First, I don't like the taste of it.

Lastly... It does not guarantee me that I will win after.

Second Soon

I was planning to get my second tattoo...

And I remember what my tattoo artist told me  when I got my first...

He said that once you inked your skin you will definitely come back for another one.

I remember I told him that I'm pretty sure I won't be back, that I'm contented with just one...

That was just a couple of months ago and now I'm looking for a new design.

This is definitely what I want eversince...

This lyrics mean so much to me so I might as well write it on my skin.

Hope it would be soon. 😁

The Ballad of Sunsets and Shooting Stars

I believe that these scars are the lines guiding me Home.

Like Orion and Northern star 

Constantly watching me by

Till I reach my destiny.

And when finally face to face,

I'll draw the sun and the moon

Upon the sands on the shore.

Let the crashing waves 

Bring them to the waters of forever.

For who needs the sun, the moon, and the stars?

When You are the Ballad of My Sunsets and Shooting Stars.

The Old Riddle

But if the world is ending...

How will You know?

If I'm too scared to tell...

Too scared to show...

I wonder how...

How will You ever know?