iPhone

I've been itching to blog about you... because you think I don't know but I know that you've been reading all my posts. Not that I don't want you to, believe me, I'm flattered.

It's just a matter of playing it dead all this time and yeah, I'm playing the dead too.

Thank you for reading my blog by the way. It is one thing to share insights and another thing to be followed by your insights. Thank you for following my blog.

I just want you to know that I know that you are reading all these. I never told you that I'm hacker before so now you know why I know.


And right now you're using your iPhone to read this post. Haha!

...and I know the code of your iPhone.

I told you I'm not naive... I'm just good at playing dead.

Confusion Begets Stir

I want to implant confusion in my head because it is the only way not to nurse this feeling, I try to put into words all the feelings I have inside because it is my way of escape. And I know that if I keep on talking about it then it might go away because everybody else could tell that I confused my feelings with the truth
that there's still me and you.

I told you I'm not naive...

I think I had given enough chance for these feelings now and it is time to really think about the other possibilities. If you can't be the right man then I'll give chance to others that could prove their worth.


Because the last time I checked I weighed him and found him overflowing... while you remain wanting.


And he is the confusion.

Autumn 31

And since my birthday is the first day of autumn... then let everything fall in to their right places.

Let God design our lives to be as beautiful as the season.

31

I've got nothing much to say today except for the fact that now I have regrets. When I look back, I see how far I've come but I can't escape the reality of my mistakes.

And yes, someone once told me that immaturity is when you never had regrets in life.

Well now I got it all coming.

And though I've learned a lot from my mistakes, still, I regret them now, and though even if I have the chance to bring back the time, I know I would still do those things, still, I regret them. It is the feeling of regret even though you know that without those mistakes you can never be wiser.

Shame on you you fool me once.
Shame on me you fool me twice.

But it's not about being a fool, I know exactly what I'm doing,

I am not naive... I just love you enough to pretend to be.

Land With Me

Morning has always been my favorite part of the day, I love breakfast because it is when I can think about all the things that accumulated in my mind overnight.

So here's what I thought...

You know when they say that eventually everything will fall into their right places, or should I say everything will land into their right places. Well, that is a good thing, really.

But in the process of falling apart, believe me, your mind cannot force you to believe in that better place beyond the bent.

And yes, my life right now is in that phase where everything is falling apart and all I could do is watch and pray that, really, they will all land safely into their right places.

And if everything crashes... land with me.

GREGorian Calendar

Small world... could you imagine.

When we were still together with my ex I always get jealous with this girl... and guess what? Her boyfriend now was actually a very close friend of mine when I was in college. I just found out today when her picture appeared on my Facebook when we're not even friends. What a small world. And funny destiny indeed.hahaha!!!

Sonata of Calje Sto. Tomas

Not because you're a good friend means you are the right man for me.

Don't get me wrong, if only it could be that simple I could have love you with all my heart and never let you go... but love as we know it is complicated.

Not because you are perfect means you are the right man for me, for in the end it is never about imperfections but acceptance.

And yes, you are perfect as perfect and sometimes I wonder how perfect we could be together. We are effortlessly compatible beyond compare and even people around could notice it. The way you read my mind like nobody can... really that's amazing. The way you tell me things like you know me better than I know myself, yeah, that's surprisingly great. And if only things were different I could have spend the rest of my life with you, but perfection doesn't guarantee happiness and I need to be happy.

And because YOU know me too well that even you could tell to whom I could find my happiness.
That even YOU knows that it is not with you.

I'm so sorry!

If only he didn't break my heart.
If only my heart still holds the key then I would have given it to you. But the key is long gone and He holds it. Though, it could have been you holding it.

Somewhere out there lies my happiness and he doesn't care. It make no sense, I know, why do I keep on searching happiness at the same place I lost it? Because that happiness that I've lost is the only happiness that I know could complete the puzzle in me.

Love could make us stupid but I don't care anymore, I've been using my brains all my life but it only led me to heartaches. So I guess I'll use my heart from now on to finally find happiness.

Happiness that only the one who stole it from me could actually give it back to me.

Maybe time will...
Finally come when I won't be needing a key to open my heart...
Then I will choose you over him.

I know I will.

I will choose YOU.

Heart or Liver?

Don't have to elaborate further...
The picture speaks for itself.

Nostalgic September

It is one of those days when everything I see, from the building nearby to my workplace, every granite, every steel tells something about you. Like each of them has a story to tell and it's all about you. Even the wind of September whispers your name to my ears like echoing your voice from somewhere.

And God, I know is sending me a message... that each day, each minute that passes by brings me closer to fate... to YOU.