Heaven Falling

He was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking then
I don't know why
But he's changed my mind




*The Alternative*
(Dedication: I cry, I nod, so I'll walk)

(Acknowledgment: Evan & Jaron)

Panakip Butas

I need a chewing gum to fill in the holes of my boring pathetic life... Gum...Gum...Gum...

Maybe gummy Vers will do.

I Cry... I nod... So I'll Walk

"Y" is will lock in road...
"Why" is a question that gives you eternal flame of will to find answers on the never ending road... that is why it is the word locked on the road of life.

"I cry, I nod, so I'll walk" is the same as "Y is will lock in road"



"People can tell"
Our eyes cannot lie what our mouth denies.
Our actions cannot hide what we feel inside.

Everytime I hear love songs from the radio, its funny how it never reminds me of my first boyfriend (who is now my ex) nor my first heart broken... but it is you that suddenly pops up immediately in my mind when in fact you're just my friend... we've been friends like forever...

I love it when you sing to me... because you're not good at it and it makes me laugh out loud and all of a sudden I could just forget all the problems I have in my life.

You're not trying but you always manage to put a smile on my face.

I wonder if you feel the same way too...

So afraid that this is again just another one sided feelings.

And I wonder if ever I could wait just a little longer, could we be together then??? Cause we seem to be always paralleled to each other.
When I was single you are with her, when you two broke up I was with another... when we broke up, you have found someone else... but we are always there for each other, listening when even the the one we are with are so deaf to us... I'm glad to have you as a friend... but its making me weak... through the years, its like we lurked all are deepest affections towards each other somewhere. And now its haunting me... and if it haunts you too, what should we do now?

Sometimes I ask myself why are we so scared?
Then I just smile and say to myself, maybe because we treat each other so special that we are scared that we might hurt each other, then that would be unbearable.
We are scared because we indeed love each other?
Dream on? am I dreaming the sweetest dream in the bitter reality?

Till then I'll let God lead the way until our roads finally meet.

See you soon!!!

u just might get it

there was a time when i just stay late at night waiting for a shooting star to fall so i could wish upon it...

then suddenly one fine night, there it was, a shooting star fell...
it made my wish come true...
but it left my sky empty...

that's when i realized, it was a lone star... the only star in my night sky...
how could i be so naive to ask for it to fall when it was the only light i have...
giving up forever for one wish...

a wish of a naive...

and could never put back that star on my night sky again.
... be careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it all... and then some you don't want.

BeAuTiFuL

Its as always...
A story of tragedy and hope...
Like "a walk to remember"; "If Only"; "City Of Angels" and the like...

Why does the girl always have to die and then life teaches the guy to go on and live his life all alone. Why does it have to be always a tragedy.

Is love not that great if both live?

Is love not that great if there was no death?

Is love not that great if not bitten by reality?

Is love not that great if there was no pain and sacrifice?

Love could be so beautiful until reality bites.
So there it goes...
Love is beautiful... maybe the only thing that is beautiful that heaven spared on earth.
Like every tragedy's lesson... common, simple but impeccably true: We can move on.

That in spite the bitterness of life can bring, never lose faith in love... because that faith in love that made you cry is the same thing that will help you move on. That love, no matter how many times life burn it and turn it up side down, love will remain the most beautiful... if not, the only thing that is beautiful in this world.

Love could create a monster... but a monster made of love is still beautiful.

If there's one word to describe love... - BEAUTIFUL.

And the only thing that remains beautiful... - LOVE.

Grinning Green

I don't believe that grass is always greener on the other side...
But I do believe that grass is green on both sides...
but we could always try and look on each sides.

Help me God to be bold enough to change even though nothing is for sure... even though the grass isn't greener on the other side... I know it still worth the try.

Help me God.

In Jesus name.Amen.

Vermonth

first day of the VER months...

mixed feeling of happiness and fear...
happy to be where i am now...
scared of what will happen...

Oh! God you alone I can trust. Amen.

busy bum

i wanna decide cause its worth deciding...
trying to change like everything is the same but the fact is... when i finally looked back i realized that nothing is the same.
the kids grew a lot taller now and the old men grew older.
and what is so frustrating right now is i'm trying to write two editorials and the good part is i've started them both, the sad part is, i can't seem to finish them... feel so uninspired.
senseless... i'm not feeling anything at all in the midst of all these drama in my life, i still feel nothing. and so, again and again this is what i call the epitome of days full but life empty.
like i'm playing this lead role in a movie with a very good script yet i'm just the actress and so after the scene, i don't feel the drama anymore because i was just living somebody elses life. don't i have a life of my own?
pretty much of a shit if you imagine huh
but "obladi oblada" life goes on right?
not even pain made me down... and that is something wrong. when being numb has become your greatest weapon in your life, it will hurt you more than pain.
and i am the epitome of that numbness.
and more than just numbness is oblivion into nothing. when reality and fantasy has lost its color how could you differentiate them?
when everything becomes plain... whatever color it is... you can never distinguish the difference anyway.
and as far as i could get... or did i ever moved at all?
but i haven't left my place... how could i be next to "why owe you".
so what else could i say if no word could fit anyway.
ironic... always been ironic.
how parallel universe could be so strict in our fates.
i fear nothing but i feel fear...
so there goes...


so much for an empty post.
just like the way you were before you found "each E are"...

am i the butterfly upon the wheel?
or just the busy bum?

Lies About Truth

"Truth" is just an opinion we make to believe in.

More than just an alibi... it is a lie we put our faith on.


Truth is the same as a lie... just more credible to hear.