Expression Of Impression

First impression lasts...

But how long will it last?...

Hypocrites!

Thou art like a sugar-coated "thing"...

Your coating looks nice, but once you're tried under the heat... your sugar coat melts away...

And then, its the real you!

So what's inside that sugar coat?...

Definitely, thedark brown colour!...

The dark brown colored milk chocolate... you know, like those M & M's... haha!!!

But M & M's milk chocolate melts in your mouth and not in your hand...

I wonder, will it melt if I put it on a fire?...

But I would rather eat all these M & M's than to just waste it ( even a piece ), just to answer that stupid question. = p

P.S. This post is like M & M's, it is sugar-coated...

You see, the funny side of this post is the sugar coat, and the real message is within.

Beauty And Madness

"Who will see the beauty in my life...
Who will see the madness in my life..."
(Fra Lippo Lippi)

I often wonder if this is a blessing or a curse.

It is always a life's irony that most of the time, those people who knock at your door, are those people whom you don't want to open up your door to.
And the one you're willing to open up your door to, is the one who doesn't want to go out of his own house, and is even afraid to knock at someone else's door. = (

Mission Impossible... Is Possible

Your mission is possible... of that am sure, only if you've got the guts to do what you're supposed to do.
There's no room for fear... and you have to realize that, this mission is given to you, for you to prove that a coward like you can stand in the midst of the battle.
Dare you, coward!
Dare you! Dare you!
Double dare you!



... teneneen... teneneen... tent... tent... tent... tent... tenent! Where's the Rabbit's foot?! = P

"I dare you to move, I dare you to move like today never happened... today never happened before..." (Switchfoot)

The Return Of The Come Back!

I feel quite nostalgic this time upon hearing a pop old school song... way back when am much younger than today. Its really a myth why we tend to love those music we have grown up with and criticize the songs that the younger ones think so cool for their generation. Take it from your grannies and your parents... when you become a young adult, you tend to become a little bit like them.
Am I that old already?! = P

The Chosen

Many are called...

Few are chosen....

But only ONE is destined.

Am about to break the glass and get out of the cave... by the moment He give me the signal and by the moment the another he, will finally take his one full big step to make a cascade effect that will let all these Dominos fall... that is the plan of fate.

Waiting for that one moment of truth that will make me believe that that thing still exist... that that thing "really" exist.

One day someday, I'll sing all my songs for that one moment of truth in my life... but until then... I'll be saving all my lullabies.

Am going with the flow of God's will.

"If you could only know me like your prayers at night,
Then everything between you and me will be alright..." (Hale)

True Lies

"His hands were meant

For different work

And his heart was known

--To none" ----Dan Fogelberg----

(Leader Of The Band)

Do I have to live in a lie just to be true?... am serious with my question!

I can feel within me the joy but it is imprisoned... bounded by insecurities and that heterogenous conglomeration of a different kind of hatred and absurd irritability... where am I to go?

Am torn between my ambition and my dream...

Torn between my priorities and passions...

Torn between my beliefs and perspectives...

Torn between my ego and my pride...

Torn between what I want and what I should be...

Torn between myself and my life...

... Where am I to go?...

Intuition still works but am not responding enough to it. Its like a disease that eats you up to the bones.

Its in my system and I can't get away from it... its more than just a shadow that you cannot run away with.

Tinted glass separates me from myself...

I see myself but I'm not her...

Do I really have to live in a lie just to be true?... coz the truth is not even quite true...

P.S. "If two people are meant for each other, it doesn't mean that they're meant for each other ... Now!" --- Dawson's Creek---

This quote goes with love... same as with life and ambition!

So patience is always a virtue... you can live your ambition... but maybe not at this moment... maybe later or some other time!

Tale Of Robert In Mt. Ternff Park

Done a mess in a sacred mass

Blew it all up, he knew it'll never last

But the mind is never that fast

To forget the vivid past.

Tracking the road way up high

But looking below with a deep sigh

Is it really heaven up in the sky?

To the earth, do I really have to say goodbye?

And so his world became cold and dark

Missing the wonderful life of a simple lark

Everyone can hear his song but no one hark

This is the tale of Robert in Mt. Ternff Park

O! A Man's Dens

On a madness begins
The journey to private allusion
An enigmatic anagram is within
Lines of published illusions.


She's so damn sane
Stillness still governs her enigmatic soul
The soul of a warrior in pain
But oblivion is controlled.


On a madness ends
Another road with bend
Another one damn ass' putrid blend
O! A man's dens.

Back For... Not So Good!

I saw you the other day... but I was not so sure. I know it was you... I felt it.
Yesterday I saw you again... and by that time I'm sure enough.
You've changed a lot... but I recognized every single detail of your face... of your smile... you haven't changed... for me.
It's been five years, though. Five long years is enough to finally forget you. But am not that good in the art of forgetting. I don't know if it is true or is it just the nostalgia that made my heart burst into sudden emotions? But again... it has been five long years... its not enough for me to forget you.
Why did you came back?... do you have another revelation for me?... I'm having a good life, though. I don't seem to need you anymore... I don't!... Do I?!
Same... same as before... though a lot of things changed. I've changed... you've changed... everything changed.
I've changed my character for so many times just to prove something until now I haven't proven yet. I thought I've come a long way already... but I haven't moved on. And now, I have to run as fast as I can just to cope up with everything.
Right now am not really sure if I'm really over with that past I still longed for. I thought, its much better if I did not see you... again. But what the heck destiny wants?!
Get out of my life!... Am not the same... we're not the same as what we're used to. Get out of my life!
I'm much better in dealing with nostalgia that in dealing with your tangible presence... so get out of my life!

P.S. I missed you... I just realize... I did miss you!

P.P.S. Still... The Heaven I Have Known.