My Glass Of Water

If you've been in a desert for quite sometime, will you drown your self in a glass of water?

Its been a drought since I can't remember and it just so happen that a certain circumstance brought me back to writing and I just got two nods from that (i thought would be) a crap. Yeah, it somehow welled up enthusiasm and confidence again and I've been thinking a lot lately if it is the right thing to go back and give up all that I've earned in the past four years of my career.

Ergo, I'm confused... that is why I'm not taking any step forward because the risk is too high and I'm still not sure of what to do.


Still got a lot of pending works, like the launching of my art web and photo gallery as well.

uhhh... so little time so much to do... and yet I'm not even close to the start.


So help me GOD!

Of Bread, Crumbs and Butter

You must know which bread you should butter and what crumbs you should throw.

To: Carcino-embryonic antigen a.k.a. CEA... Its such a shame on you to create a chaos in our world by pretending that your hands are clean. I was so disappointed the moment you declared your innocence by throwing the mud from your hands to ours. Such a shameful act on you to advertise our filthy hands when in fact, those dirt even came from you. You are a coward filthy shit that tries hard to pretend that you are clean... oh! well, is there a clean shit anyway? Soon everybody will smell your putrid scent and by then you will realize that what comes around goes around and what comes up must go down. - then we'll be redeemed.


TO: Garapon... its such a disappointment to realize that you instantly believed that carcino-embryonic antigen without seeking for a second opinion. Piece of advice... know the bread and the crumbs. Not because he initiated a small petty talk about something annoying means its all true... don't you even realize that he is creating a chaos in our world? Wake up - YOU! He is the real liar... what he is confessing is actually the lies... did I ever told you that he was the one who even captured a photograph of you just to have something to gossip? And he is turning the world up side down and you created a wall because of the lies that you've been fed.

And when all is well, a hope that is... one thing to remember...

Don't judge a soul by a lie that was told.

Beautiful Without A Face

Its a strange feeling...

I remember a dream back 9 years ago... I was talking to an old man but I can't see his face... and the only thing that I can remember when I woke up back then, in spite of our very long conversation, was his last words to me...

He said...

"An empty heart is heavier than a full heart"




And the phrase says it all.
Until know, I could still picture that dream, that faceless old man, and his gentle voice like a father talking to his child.

And I still wonder who is that faceless old man.

Unforgotten Beauty

Love is a beautiful thing.
Love could have been perfectly beautiful if its love alone.
But love cannot exist alone, it needs two people and other related stuffs and figures which are hard to figure out.
And so complication begins.

If only love could exist alone...

But love co-exist with pain and lies and bitterness.
With those hurting comes pride and jealousy.
And so love becomes a forgotten beauty.

People are people.

We are different.

And not even love could make us alike.

Love could not stop me from hurting you intentionally, unintentionally, and without knowing.

Love could not stop you from hurting me intentionally, unintentionally, and without knowing either.

Love cannot stop disappointments.

And I'm very disappointed with myself for expecting too much.
Its like I was born in an ideal world where everybody and everything meets my expectations and even go further and beyond. Like everything always comes my way.

Until reality bites and it did not stopped there. It chewed me and then swallowed me up and just when I thought that was it... just when I thought I defined pain itself, reality digested me and it was the worst pain anyone could endure... with its torturing acidic formulation and the way a normal stomach transforms the food into shit - that's it.

The ideal world became a chaotic living round substance.

But love remained the unforgotten beauty.

Like the stars at night...

Night is black
Black is dark
Dark is creepy

but the stars remained beautiful.

So as the love I once knew as the epitome of beauty...

It will always be.

And though pain is hurting,
I'd rather feel it than be numb and never see the beauty again.


Fact is... in a relationship...

The one who loves less is in control of the relationship...
But the one who loves more is happier.

I'd rather be happier.


P.S. I can see your flaws, but YOU remained perfect.

(^v^.)♥°(o,o)°

Much Is True

I can't think of a reason why I love You... but I have one reason why I will never leave You... its because I Love You! ♥♥♥ (^V^)

Penda

when chains becomes freedom... ♥♥♥

Universe (Part 1.25) ♥♥♥

I can't help it... I just can't contain what's in my heart right now... its over flowing, its overwhelming. Its all YOU.

I'm so, so in love with YOU.

I am so Over inspired that I cannot even finish writing this song that I've started... it goes...

- its not my first time to fall, not my first time to fall
but its the first time I landed in love, I've landed in your arms
like the first time we kissed, that kiss so beautiful
then you wrapped me in your arms, bedazzled with your charms

Let the time stand still
cause you know forever i will
stay by your side
love you with all my might

let the time prove to you
forever i will be true
i'll never let go of your hand
even if its a dead end.


eerrrr... my song is so raw but i can't think for the perfect words right now, i can't think of nothing else, no one else but YOU.

okay, i surrender!!!

yeah... I LOVE YOU ♥♥♥

Tribute

Heard that CIA died yesterday. And suddenly I realized how time goes by so fast and that life is indeed fragile and death is inevitable.

Farewell to the VIP days.

Rest In Peace.

Universe

You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars


So happy to be found... =)