So I checked on you.
Because you've been crossing my dreams three nights in a row now.
And I'm beginning to wonder how are you doing.
So I checked on you.
And I see that you're perfectly fine.
Enjoying and binging the things you enjoy the most.
And for a minute I thanked God for keeping you safe and sound all these years.
But I remember you.
Maybe thinking that you're just a trivial part of my memory.
But you are one ESSENTIAL.
And you don't have to know that.
I don't want to bother you nor stir something in your head.
I am writing about you as my escape.
This is for me.
And this is about you.
I remember you.
Believing in me when no one else does.
I remember you.
The only one who could look me in the eye and truly trust everything that I say...
When my reputation was so bruised and shattered into pieces and so filthy that even I cannot dare to look at.
I remember you.
The only one who could see clearly.
Convincing me that the home that I knew has turned into a prison.
Convincing me to escape and find myself again.
I remember you.
And you are NOT aware that you exist in my life.
You carried me out of the dark when I can't walk myself out.
You talked me through the night so I won't feel scared.
You convinced me of my worth.
And I don't want you to know that.
I don't want to bother you nor stir something in your head.
I am at peace with myself now.
So you can haunt me for the rest of my life.
But I won't bother you nor stir something in your head.
For whatever is inside my heart I'll keep it till the end of my days.