The Best in Me

I'm not yet finish with the book but now I'm actually watching it and tears just won't dry that easy especially if it tells your story right off bat. And the pain hurts deeper when it talks about destiny and all those stuffs that I stopped believing in for so long. But look at them, they're so happy and why, just why it can't happen to me really?

And I know exactly the end of this but I just can't close my eyes. I know it will hurt at the end but I wanted to see it any way. And you know what... I guess SECOND CHANCES ARE MEANT FOR FORGIVENESS AND NOT FOR TOGETHERNESS.

It is sad to watch, but even sadder to realize that it's actually a reality.

When will it ever be...

That sweet reality.

The Twist of Charles and Oliver

It is funny to realize that in spite the fact that's right off bat, I still can't help but check you out once in a while.
And the more funny thing is that, even though I'm hurting, I still want to see it in my naked eye. And yes, once again, you whipped my heart and tore it apart like no other can. And that feeling called pain is once again drowning me... and you don't care. And the worse, I have to have faith in God that he has a plan for all of these pains. Not that I don't want to believe in it, but believe me, during these times, it it easier to quit.

How could you just walk away like that? I can't believe I had fallen in love with a monster without a heart. How could you just mock me after what I've been through because of you. I wanted to hate you. Right now I do hate you.

You are a heartless father.
You are a heartless husband.

And I can't believe God gave me you.
You ruined my idea of love.
You destroyed the reputation of love.
You made me curse fairy tales.
You made me bitter in every way life has to offer.

You ruined me.

And worse, you don't care.
You never did.

I wish the pain will just vanish like Amelia in the clouds.

You will never know this pain, because you don't have a heart to feel.

You will never, ever feel the feeling of losing because you're a monster.

You are not capable of loving.

I hate myself for loving you.
And I hate myself more for still loving you.

God grant me real happiness, and even if it's not with you.

Blessed are the shallows for depth they'll never find hence, they'll never drown.

And you are the epitome of shallowness... for it is shallow to have not a heart.

And though pain is reigning my heart, I thank God I have one.

Stephie's Post

I was at Starbucks when I saw this post and it made me laugh like I'm a crazy girl.

Even the guy sitting next to me looked at me wondering what it is all about.

But really, this is funny.

Especially the 0 and 9...

Lol!!!

Sheeran

I know my look is pretty enough to attract and intimidate anyone, so how much more if you add my wit... Definitely you'll be shaking like a leaf.

I did not push you away, you're just not brave enough that's why you walked away.

47

"What was your mistake?... "


"Your mistake is that you needed me to know you're better than me."


I told you it's on my list of favorite movies. And I've just watched it again.

SGE1815G

I've been anticipating this movie since last year and yes, it worth the wait.

There are a lot of movies and only few are great... and it's definitely on my list.

"We determine who we are in what we do."- agent 47



Can you guess why the title of this post is SGE1815G?

Painted Canvas

Your face is a picture of a thousand sunsets,
And I could just sit on the edge of the earth risking the fall.
To glance you so high, up in that blue sky, wishing I could fly.
Wondering if you might wanna look down, look down upon me.


If love suffers long, how long could it endure eternity.
If love is kind, how could it give when there's no more to give.
If love believes all things, how could you lie sincerely.
If love hopes all things, how could it face another day to live.
If love never fails...
Love made me bitter
When God is love...
Does God made me bitter.
But look us now...
Look at us now.

And the beauty of all the sun rays of the day,
Transcends like there ain't be tomorrow waiting, but I'm still waiting.
And yet the air fills my breath, I woke up alive but broken.
Drowned with those tears I have to admit but I can't deny it.

And those earthen vessels I tried my best to keep,
They are all broken now.
Young blood, child's eyes.
Innocence ain't no better than ignorance.
And the raging spirit created me a monster I'm scared of...
Set me free.

Everyone is broken... broken by the rule of love.

But isn't it the picture remains beautiful.

expose '

For quite sometime now I've been hiding my other blog...

But now I'm actually ready to expose it.


www.privatechronicles.blogspot.com

October's Lists

For love is the reason why I write...
And hope seasons each word...
And by faith it will come true.


May God guide my journey to October.