Which is better... A small world where you can't move Or... A big world where you get lost??? Just a thought.

we live our lives on different sides...

The atheist in the making... My advice to myself : "never let anyone, or anything bring you down... not even god." My own thoughts make me shiver.

Control and power are two different things. You can have power even without control, but if you have control you have power. And people with control has greater power because they tend to control their power and not the other way around

Love lust for sacrifice... I don't know why but its true, love is insatiable unless the pain of sacrifice seeped through the core of your heart. Its like that itchy insect bite that you scratch hard enough to wound your skin, and until pain stops the itch, then you'll be satisfied. The common thing that love and lie has is that they both hurts.

to live like there is no forever

Vindicated... if God did not give us what we wanted, its because He has a better plan for us than our plans for ourselves. Meagan Young, the first Filipina who bagged the Miss World crown. She just made history out of the urban legend that Philippines will never have it. The first time I saw Meagan way back starstruck batch 2, she was just 14 years old, she was already my bet. And when she was cast out for the final four, I thought this show just made a mistake for not making her the grand winner. After sometime when she transferred from one network to another and still not noticed, I thought she is like a beautiful bird in a cage, she has a lot to prove but she just can't spread out her wings because nobody believes in her capability. She was my silent favorite, and waiting for her to make it big. Until she did. When she won Miss World Philippines I was not surprise because I always thought she is good and great at the same time, so when finally crowned as the Miss World 2013, she is vindicated. After all her lost battles, finally she is vindicated. Her crown to most means victory, but for me its an inspiration, that God knows what He is doing, that God will prove His promise, His better plan. And I know to myself that soon I will, too, will be vindicated. After a lot of lost battles recently, I know soon I will win, a better battle, a bigger glory than what I've been fighting for. I have faith, so at this very moment I'm claiming it... I AM VINDICATED.

adding another year in your life is not about getting old but rather growing wiser, stronger, and happier.

rock of ages (part two: the rocky road)

Last night I dreamed about you, and it made me realize that I may not be missing you but I can't deny that I'm loving you. All these years I keep on pretending that all I wanted was to be your friend but then I must admit I'm a coward.

Now all that is left are just regrets and what ifs, I wonder how I'm coping with this.

Your absence made me realize that love is more than just being together.

I'm too filthy to be with you, I feel like I don't deserve to be with you and I'm hating the man who made me filthy and not worthy of your love.

It could have been me and you if only I've waited a little longer for both of us to compose ourselves, if only I didn't let myself get filthy by the hands of some other man. A regret that can never be changed.

I love you... my heart is screaming my love for you.

I'm sorry I was the first one who put a distance.
I'm sorry I chose the wrong one.
I'm sorry I didn't chose you... but if you only knew that each minute I spent with him I was wishing its you. I didn't chose you because I love you so much I can't afford to hurt you... when loving comes with pain, I can't afford to be that pain.
Sometimes I wonder maybe the reason why I end up all alone is because I didn't really loved him, because it was always you. It is you I'm in love with.

My rock and my fortress...
If only you could love me again like before everything becomes filthy.
Shower me with your love and I'll be whole again, I'll be clean again.