The Lonely Hacker
I woke up late today still mingling all the thoughts that accumulated in my brain since last weekend. I heard our neighbor muffled around and I heard him sing some old tunes from his era. He is always as cheerful as ever. He is old… maybe just a bit younger than my dad, but he is always wearing that smile. Sometimes, when I pass by his house I could hear him complain but still smiling – and I reckon, maybe he is in the brighter side of his gloom. What a wise old man.
Then I suddenly realize the dramatic changes of everything and everyone around me. The kids I used to see before are now becoming young men and ladies. Those little girls are becoming and looking more like their mothers each day. They are growing.
I saw this old familiar face and I could barely believe that he gained weight. Well, as if while everything and everyone around me evolves, while life moves around me everywhere, I’m still the same – left out with the changes. Maybe because I don’t want to… or maybe I’m just scared.
I wonder if they noticed me. Maybe I’m the only one who keenly observes everything and everyone around me and still get mesmerized by a falling leaf. A keen observer. A lonely hacker.
P.S. I made my decision but am not so sure if it is right. There are variety of decisions, there is the “RIGHT” decision, the “WRONG” decision, “MY” decision, “YOUR” decision, “OUR” decision, “THEIR” decision, and of course “GOD’S” decision.
And I made “MY” decision. Hope you get the picture of my point of view.
“When I see how my path seem to end up before your face…”