Doubting Happiness

I don’t know how he do it but he do. I guess, maybe it is because it is imply a movie. A simple movie without too much of that techno class, but I’m adding it in my list of faves. I could only ponder and wonder how will I ever take such overwhelming torture of life… though I could actually see my own reflection in his story. His story in a way or another is also my story, and all I could ever do was to cry at every scene of his life. I could feel exactly the agony and the poignancy as reality bites him in every corner of his life, so I could not help but feel happy too when the sweet ending came along.




At that little part of his life… he called that “happiness’. However, at one part of his life, he doubted happiness. That maybe happiness is something we can only pursue but can never really have no matter what.






This part of my life I call it “Doubting Happiness”. I can no longer dream. All can do is just live what life has to give me without taking any risk to change it. I can no longer dream nor make my dreams come true. Yes, I’m living the life I planned to live, but maybe, that great plan was my plan alone and absolutely not the plan and not the will of God that is why I can’t find happiness out of this planned life I’m living. I’m supposed to be happy but I can’t find any reasons to be. I’m feeding myself with so much inspiring novels, movies, music and stories but nothing fits the holes that occupy my life, my life is an empty hole. Yes, I’m in pursuit of happiness. Thanks Will for making me feel sadder but atleast I’m learning my lessons.






By the way, the best thing that I noticed on that movie was that, Chris Gardner really has a good son, and very understanding too. I mean a very good son and not a delinquent son. And that thing made me realize one great lesson, that is, even though heaven falls and the hell rises up and you are caught in the middle of the earth, God won’t leave you empty handed. He won’t leave you with nothing to lose. You see, Chris Gardner loss his wife, his salary, his car, his money, his home… which most of us would probably think that it is the “everything”. But no, God has left him with one possession… which is actually by far the greatest, his son. And that one thing gave him the will to strive and finally make it. Well, that is one good realization of mine – right?


Now my mind is working again, Hahaha!!!

Memorable quotes forThe Pursuit of Happyness (2006)
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Christopher Gardner: You gotta trust me, all right?

Christopher: I trust you.

Christopher Gardner: 'Cause I'm getting a better job

Christopher Gardner: I met my father for the first time when I was 28 years old. I made up my mind that when I had children, my children were going to know who their father was.

Christopher Gardner: [to his son] You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period.

Christopher Gardner: There's no salary?

Jay Twistle: No.

Christopher Gardner: I was not aware of that. My circumstances have changed some.

Christopher Gardner: Don't ever let someone tell you, you can't do something. Not even me. Christopher Gardner: All right?

Christopher: All right.

Martin Frohm: What would you say if man walked in here with no shirt, and I hired him? What would you say?

Christopher Gardner: He must have had on some really nice pants.

Christopher Gardner: [about the spelling mistakes in the graffiti of a building] It's not "H-A-P-P-Y-N-E-S-S" Happiness is spelled with an "I" instead of a "Y"

Christopher: Oh, okay. Is "Fuck" spelled right?

Christopher Gardner: Um, yes. "Fuck" is spelled right but you shouldn't use that word. Christopher: Why? What's it mean?

Christopher Gardner: It's, um, an adult word used to express anger and, uh, other things. But it's an adult word. It's spelled right, but don't use it.

Christopher Gardner: Probably means there's a good chance. Possibly means we might or we might not.

Christopher: Okay.

Christopher Gardner: So, what does probably mean?

Christopher: It means we have a good chance.

Christopher Gardner: And what does possibly mean?

Christopher: I know what it means! It means we're not going to the game.

Christopher Gardner: And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it.
[repeated line]

Christopher: Where are we going?

Christopher: Hey dad, you wanna hear something funny? There was a man who was drowning, and a boat came, and the man on the boat said "Do you need help?" and the man said "God will save me". Then another boat came and he tried to help him, but he said "God will save me", then he drowned and went to Heaven. Then the man told God, "God, why didn't you save me?" and God said "I sent you two boats, you dummy!"

[last lines] Christopher Gardner: How many planets are there?

Christopher: Um... 7?

Christopher Gardner: Seven? Nine! OK, who's the king of the jungle?

Christopher: The gorilla?

Christopher Gardner: Gorilla? Nope. Lion.

Christopher: Yeah, lion, lion. You wanna hear something funny?

Christopher Gardner: OK.

Christopher: Knock knock.

Christopher Gardner: Who's there?

Christopher: Shelby.

Christopher Gardner: Shelby who?

Christopher: Shelby comin' round the mountain when she comes, Shelby comin' round the mountain when she comes!

Christopher Gardner: Hey, that's good.

Christopher: Knock knock.

Christopher Gardner: Who's there?

Christopher: Nobody.

Christopher Gardner: Nobody who?

[Christopher doesn't respond]

Christopher Gardner: Nobody who?

[Christopher still doesn't respond]

Christopher Gardner: A-ha-ha, that's a good one, I like that!

[repeated line] Christopher Gardner: Christopher is staying with me.

Shoe-Spotting Intern: Hey, you're missing a shoe.

Christopher Gardner: Oh, hey, thanks!

Christopher Gardner: [voice-over] This part of my life... this part right here? This part is called "being stupid."

[after he hits Chris] Driver Who Hits Chris: Hey, asshole! Are you all right, asshole?

[about Chris' bone-density scanner] Homeless Guy #1: It's a time machine... I know it's a time machine...

Christopher Gardner: [voice-over] This machine in my lap? It is not a time machine.
[last narration lines]

Christopher Gardner: [voice-over] This part of my life... this part right here? This is called "happyness."

Christopher Gardner: This part of my life is called "internship."

Christopher: What are you doing?

Christopher Gardner: Paying a parking ticket.

Christopher: ...But we don't have a car anymore.

Christopher Gardner: Yeah, I know...

[last lines] Christopher: Knock, knock.

Christopher Gardner: Who's there?

Christopher: Nobody.

Christopher Gardner: Nobody who?

[Christopher says nothing]

Christopher Gardner: Christopher, nobody who?

[Christopher says nothing]

Christopher Gardner: [laughs] Okay, that's funny.

Christopher Gardner: Maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue. And maybe we can actually never have it no matter what.

Reverend Williams: The important thing about that freedom train, is it's got to climb mountains. We ALL have to climb mountains, you know. Mountains that go way up high, and mountains that go deep and low. Yes, we know what those mountains are here at Clive. We sing about them.

If you are a thinker, this movie will challenge your visions of family, business and society. On one hand, the film reinforces the great American myth of the self-made man and equal opportunity. Myths are not necessarily false simply for being myths--we can make some of them true by choice, and our belief in this myth still helps make America great. Free-market capitalism is not the cure to all ills--surely it is the source of many ills--but it does open social doors that nothing else can even budge. On the other hand, if you can leave this movie without a burning indignation that any American child of any race should have to struggle just to have a place to sleep, you must be cynical indeed. This movie doesn't get on a soapbox, not even for a second--it just tells a real-life story that owns you before you know it.I hope a few of us will let our motivations own us for years instead of hours after the movie's over. (A Comment)

A Tale Of Everybody

Everybody has his/her own story coz everybody has his/her own past. We maybe just a tinge of sound between two silence, for before us was silence and after us is another silence. We are just like a single slap on a placid water creating a moment of disturbances and then... hush again... as time flows into eternity.



I found myself lately as a portrait hanging on a wall with eyes wandering on everyone who passes by. I could just sit down at one corner of Mc Donalds and observe the people around me, pondering how different are we from each other. Wondering how did I let my fate run out of time and I was left alone, exhausted but needing to catch up.



I am the exact epitome of a man having his days full but a life so empty.



I found myself living in the past while everybody has moved on with their lives. I found myself still holding on with the tide not wanting to be carried away by the waves to reach the shore. I was left there in the cold but afraid to let go. Unwilling to take that one great risk to be safe.



There is something in my eyes that made my vision go blur... Oh! it is my tears, but they aren't rolling down on my cheeks, they are frozen like ice, maybe because it is too cold inside of me.



I am the exact epitome of a man having his days full but a life so empty.

The Epitome Of Happiness

"Maybe the creators of that movie ( The Pursuit of Happiness ) saw me when I was still applying for a job, coz that is my story. "

---- Our Face----

(An Anagram)

Never, never judge a book until you have read it. It is one thing to read a good story and another thing to be touched and be inspired by the story.

In this world now where time leaves you with so much to catch up with, where people would just create their own imaginary definitions of you, sometimes, it sucks to realize that everything is superficial.

Many will come and talk to you and they will all leave you a lesson, but only few will leave you not just a lesson but also an inspiration to go on with your life inspite the hopelessness that our short-sighted eyes could see.

This man (the topic of this post) is one of the few who gave me the picture of real happiness, a portrait of the brighter side, and the sketch of sunshine after a storm.

People might think that these stories are just fairytales and just feel good novels, and I must admit that I'm one of those bitter people who don't buy such logic, but I would like to testify my paradigm shift... that happiness is real, we just have to learn how to appreciate it.